He came over and addressed himself as Jonathan Lee during our 1st real meeting during the ice-breaking session in Herr Baum's german language class. He was wearing his trademark sarawak emblazed jacket and we sort of hit it off directly. During the brief 5 years I got to know him, he has never failed to impress me with his humble and down to earth demeanour. I idolized him and wished I had 10% of his intelligence but 100% of his personality. It all happened within a few blinks of eyelids...cancer took him away from us...I cant believe it...
I never got the chance to say good bye...He left in a hurry, in real hurry. A hugely talented future star of our generation has fallen like a meteor onto the ground. He left an irreplaceable void in my life. In fact it was with deep guilt that I wrote this, cherish your every moments with your loved ones and never live to regret later like I did. Jon, I didn't have the chance to show my love for you as a friend when you needed it. There is no more meaning of me saying how sorry I am...you are gone, back to your rightful place alongside Him.
How fragile life is. I wanted to be strong and be a man. I wanted so badly to reclaim your trust. I deeply regret that you will not be able to see it. Tears shed are to no avail if I still fail to put into action the advice you told me. Tonight I wanna cry, but tomorrow I want to live with a renewed vigor and carry out your unfinished vision. I will fulfill my destiny one day and with everything I have dedicated in your memory.
Every single bit of time spent alongside you will not be forgotten. The classes, the trips, the outings, everything bears a memory of you. You are a perfect friend for me and I thank you for that. Your spirit will live on in me. God bless you. May you find eternal peace in heaven. Do Rest In Peace my friend...good bye!
Sunday, 2 August 2009
Thursday, 30 July 2009
while waiting for sunrise...
I decided to draw 1 myself and go to bed after fed up staying up whole night waiting for the freaking sun rise that many claimed to be around 4 am in germany. (Its 5.12 and counting...)
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It's a brilliant piece of art isn't it...it's not too shiny and the best part is that it can be customized to your own preferences.
Blogger Darren-go-bonkers-while-waiting-sunrise signing off...a lame effort is still better than no effort at all. After all this time spluttering shit...that freaking sun is still not freaking arise. Damn!
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/ | \ It's legen...wait for it...wait for it...dary!
It's a brilliant piece of art isn't it...it's not too shiny and the best part is that it can be customized to your own preferences.
Blogger Darren-go-bonkers-while-waiting-sunrise signing off...a lame effort is still better than no effort at all. After all this time spluttering shit...that freaking sun is still not freaking arise. Damn!
give and take
Literally means that you give something and get back something in return. A slight calculative person will mind if he or she got something that was equal in value with what was contributed in the first place. A very calculative person always looks for the best deal that suits their own needs without giving anything in return...in 1 word, selfish. A calculative person is usually meticulous and good in arithmetics...it's a fact isn't it? Another important aspect is the thick skinned feature, asking for favors in unashamed manner.
On the contrary, a person who gives but expects nothing in return is a saint, a living legend that most people failed to appreciate and cherish. They are called kind and generous in more subtle word play but it literally translates into naive and dumb ass. Which type of person are you in? The blogger finds himself in the non categorized section...slight calculative(opinion varies in this case)but very bad in arithmetics...in other sense he is closer to being a saint without himself knowing it(because he gave more after some silly mathematical mistakes).
Self appraisal done in a subtle way is called syok sendiri secara stylish...the 4s.
4s Blogger Darren signing off...
On the contrary, a person who gives but expects nothing in return is a saint, a living legend that most people failed to appreciate and cherish. They are called kind and generous in more subtle word play but it literally translates into naive and dumb ass. Which type of person are you in? The blogger finds himself in the non categorized section...slight calculative(opinion varies in this case)but very bad in arithmetics...in other sense he is closer to being a saint without himself knowing it(because he gave more after some silly mathematical mistakes).
Self appraisal done in a subtle way is called syok sendiri secara stylish...the 4s.
4s Blogger Darren signing off...
Sunday, 12 July 2009
我寻找的，会不会就在我身边？
我会不会忽略了身边的一些东西呢？ 寻找了这么久，是不是早已找到了但自己却瞎了眼没看到呢？ 但为什么我看到时，又不见了？ 哈哈，这捉迷藏挺有意思的嘛！ 我要留心了，别再让这东西给溜走了。
高低论
高高在上时，别忘了曾经颓废的时刻。 颓废时，别忘了转机就在角落等待着我们踏出这一步。 高高低低， 低低高高， 不高不低，这全都是人生。 突然累了，睡一觉醒来又是新一天来临了。 这就是好好活着的奥妙，上帝是公平的， 每个人都有相等的时间和机会。 你的一秒和我的一秒是一样的，在乎你我如何运用来把握机会。
这一刻，我在低处黑暗中徘徊， 思索着如何攀爬上去，爬出这黑暗的洞。 攀爬过程难免会失手滑落， 跌回原点。 但只要我搽搽伤口，咬紧牙根捉着洞壁上那长满刺的树藤再往上爬，相信终有一天我会看到洞口外的阳光照在我遍体鳞伤的身体。 伤口是人生经历，不痛就是没经历过挫折。 树藤是亲友，一直默默地扶助你向上爬。 珍惜那树藤，不要在意树藤上的刺对你造成的痛楚，它可是帮助你爬出黑暗深洞的最佳良伴呢！ 很感谢树藤扶助之恩，没有你们，没有我。 朋友，衷心的谢谢你们！
这一刻，我在低处黑暗中徘徊， 思索着如何攀爬上去，爬出这黑暗的洞。 攀爬过程难免会失手滑落， 跌回原点。 但只要我搽搽伤口，咬紧牙根捉着洞壁上那长满刺的树藤再往上爬，相信终有一天我会看到洞口外的阳光照在我遍体鳞伤的身体。 伤口是人生经历，不痛就是没经历过挫折。 树藤是亲友，一直默默地扶助你向上爬。 珍惜那树藤，不要在意树藤上的刺对你造成的痛楚，它可是帮助你爬出黑暗深洞的最佳良伴呢！ 很感谢树藤扶助之恩，没有你们，没有我。 朋友，衷心的谢谢你们！
I gotta feeling
Tonight is a good night...I gotta feeling...tonight will be a good night! Been busy for the past 2 weeks and I was glad that my time was occupied on thinking of mathematical equations rather than the messed up part of my life...
With the fun fizzled out and the feel good factor all but washed up, reality is back. How I wished he was out there tonight with us at the dinner...well...it might take a little while for that dream to come true.
Back at the dirty but cosy room of mine, thinking of ifs and buts...trying hard to disrupt my body clock to finish this article...I'm really at a loss yet again. My only trusted source of communication, words, is failing me...failing me badly...
Why is everything gloomy and dark in my blog? Well, in comes the colour and vigour but out goes the creative best of me...an emo freak? Another important note is that I do not write when I'm genuinely happy as words are irrelevant when you are smiling from your heart. So yeah...if being expressive and emotional is bad then so be it. Its just another nickname...no big deal!
One more thing, I offer my sincere prayers so that he can be healed and come back to us in no time. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday...over and over again...I hope he can stay strong and be happy everyday. Please bless him with strength and courage to overcome his ordeal. He deserves a second chance!
With the fun fizzled out and the feel good factor all but washed up, reality is back. How I wished he was out there tonight with us at the dinner...well...it might take a little while for that dream to come true.
Back at the dirty but cosy room of mine, thinking of ifs and buts...trying hard to disrupt my body clock to finish this article...I'm really at a loss yet again. My only trusted source of communication, words, is failing me...failing me badly...
Why is everything gloomy and dark in my blog? Well, in comes the colour and vigour but out goes the creative best of me...an emo freak? Another important note is that I do not write when I'm genuinely happy as words are irrelevant when you are smiling from your heart. So yeah...if being expressive and emotional is bad then so be it. Its just another nickname...no big deal!
One more thing, I offer my sincere prayers so that he can be healed and come back to us in no time. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday...over and over again...I hope he can stay strong and be happy everyday. Please bless him with strength and courage to overcome his ordeal. He deserves a second chance!
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