Malaysia is celebrating its birthday again. For many people it will just be another day off to chill out at home. How many people will really embrace the real spirit of merdeka? If patriotism was based solely on flag waving and singing of national anthem, then many will be labelled as not patriotic, me included. Patriotism to me is way more than that, it is the unconditional and undying love for the country you were born in and grew up in. It is your root and you are willing to shed blood to protect it.
Merdeka signifies the freedom from colonization as well as the freedom of speech which is lacking at the moment in Malaysia. But lets not spoil the day with certain bad practices that are already deeply entrenched in our society. Malaysia with all its flaws is still a beautiful country. Diversity is our strength, not a weakness to be exploited by spineless politicians. We are different but we are all proud Malaysian.
Happy Merdeka from DC. May our motherland be blessed with everlasting peace and a matured democracy.
Monday 31 August 2009
Sunday 30 August 2009
Luck? Even champions need that.
With rose tinted glasses on, I am glad to know that Man Utd whipped the sorry asses of the gunners-became-goners. Luck or no luck, Man Utd post ronaldo era still won while being pathetic and well under their usual high rolling standards. Imagine what the score will be when the team is on form. The haters are fast to claim that it was all luck. I tell you what, championships are gained in games like this when you played poorly and still claim victory. The bare naked facts are that arsenal outplayed Man Utd but still lost...reminds me of the 2005 FA cup final where the goners were totally outplayed and still ended up with the trophy. What comes around goes around. Point being made.
The swashbuckling counter attacking football with ronaldo at the focal point of it might have been a thing of the past but players come, players go...the club will still move on. Glory and Manchester United will not be separated as long as the wise old man is still at the helm. Everyone hates Man Utd because we can't seem to stop winning! We love to be hated because it means we are winning! UNITED WE RULE
The swashbuckling counter attacking football with ronaldo at the focal point of it might have been a thing of the past but players come, players go...the club will still move on. Glory and Manchester United will not be separated as long as the wise old man is still at the helm. Everyone hates Man Utd because we can't seem to stop winning! We love to be hated because it means we are winning! UNITED WE RULE
Friday 28 August 2009
I have been true to myself
And the relief was immense. Even thought the regret of not actually trying hard enough still lingers on...
I learned a great deal of what not to do, and most important is to be myself. There is no point to portray an image that is not true to the others. I still carry many flaws with me. But there is one thing I know, I am willing to bruise my head again although the answer is clear. Man, I am stubborn and that is truly me!
I learned a great deal of what not to do, and most important is to be myself. There is no point to portray an image that is not true to the others. I still carry many flaws with me. But there is one thing I know, I am willing to bruise my head again although the answer is clear. Man, I am stubborn and that is truly me!
Thursday 27 August 2009
Optimism breeds wealth
Forget the get rich quick schemes, the answer lies within you. You hold your own destiny. An optimist will take hardships and obstacles thrown at him as a form of challenge and thrive on it. A pessimist will however wallow in self pity and admit defeat before it even started. The wealthy ones all share a common belief, a belief that there will be a tomorrow. Thus they place their money on what they believe in, the future. It doesn't matter how loaded you are or otherwise, the key is whether you chose to believe in a better future or not.
Besides that resilience is a by product of optimism. Always looking at the bright side of life makes your life happier and thus less susceptible to feeling down and moody. With optimism you can soldier on in life and keep things rolling even in the bad times. You might fall on the way but do remember to give a light pat to your sore bottom, shrug your shoulders and pick yourself up and continue your journey.
An inspiration gained through reader's digest,
DC
Besides that resilience is a by product of optimism. Always looking at the bright side of life makes your life happier and thus less susceptible to feeling down and moody. With optimism you can soldier on in life and keep things rolling even in the bad times. You might fall on the way but do remember to give a light pat to your sore bottom, shrug your shoulders and pick yourself up and continue your journey.
An inspiration gained through reader's digest,
DC
Maturity vs Resilience
Ever wonder the day you wake up with a new mindset? The stubbornness of the past and countless lamp posts and mortar brick walls you banged your poor little head against, everything sounds funny to you when you looked back. How silly you can be when you are young huh...
I can be so irrational when it comes to certain things but 1 thing for sure is that I know what I'm doing but I probably used the wrong way in many different situations. Cracking ill mannered jokes while what she actually need is just a listening ear, acting childish just to attract her attention, being really blur because of my couldn't be bothered attitude. The reason why many people think that I am directionless is because I did a few mistakes and people used a magnifying glass on it. This directionless guy managed to bring his family to tour london, paris, barcelona, vienna, prague and still come back in one piece tells you something right?
Why bother to explain now when in the past I let it all flow like water under the bridge? It is your opinion and your mouth and it is not within my limits to stop what other people would think of me...bla...bla... This is the past. It is time to confront problems head on. To say out things in the mind and not keep it to myself anymore. To actually say I don't mind what others think of me is inaccurate as well. In fact I do mind, and especially what she thinks of me. Why would I mind? It is because I do really care about her.
With age still hopefully on my side, I hope my timekeeping will improve with age and so does the blurriness. Losing a friend and facing rejections and failures in examinations do feel like being stabbed in the heart many times at the same spot but compared to greater things in life you will learn sooner or later to let go of disappointments and get on with life.
I have failed in exams, I have been robbed of all my belongings, I have got rejected, I have lost 2 friends but I am still here standing, smiling back at you. I am more resilient than you people think I am. But I still remember what jon said, words falter without action. Rejudge me!
I can be so irrational when it comes to certain things but 1 thing for sure is that I know what I'm doing but I probably used the wrong way in many different situations. Cracking ill mannered jokes while what she actually need is just a listening ear, acting childish just to attract her attention, being really blur because of my couldn't be bothered attitude. The reason why many people think that I am directionless is because I did a few mistakes and people used a magnifying glass on it. This directionless guy managed to bring his family to tour london, paris, barcelona, vienna, prague and still come back in one piece tells you something right?
Why bother to explain now when in the past I let it all flow like water under the bridge? It is your opinion and your mouth and it is not within my limits to stop what other people would think of me...bla...bla... This is the past. It is time to confront problems head on. To say out things in the mind and not keep it to myself anymore. To actually say I don't mind what others think of me is inaccurate as well. In fact I do mind, and especially what she thinks of me. Why would I mind? It is because I do really care about her.
With age still hopefully on my side, I hope my timekeeping will improve with age and so does the blurriness. Losing a friend and facing rejections and failures in examinations do feel like being stabbed in the heart many times at the same spot but compared to greater things in life you will learn sooner or later to let go of disappointments and get on with life.
I have failed in exams, I have been robbed of all my belongings, I have got rejected, I have lost 2 friends but I am still here standing, smiling back at you. I am more resilient than you people think I am. But I still remember what jon said, words falter without action. Rejudge me!
Sunday 23 August 2009
23岁的执著
望着罗马的trevi瀑布，思路回到3年前曾经来过此地时的心情。相比之下，风景依在但是人却变了，我不认得3年前的我了。曾经明白烦恼是自己招来的，别人是不能添加烦恼给你。 你不去烦恼，你的心就不会有烦恼。现在不同了，几乎每一天都好像活在一种透不过气的黑暗密室中。学习放下包袱？ 我不曾给过自己任何压力，我甚至是在得过且过度日子。朋友走了，我得把包袱杠起来了。因为是时候面对事实了。我不能再承受另一个朋友的离去，而且是在我没有付出努力后的情况下离去。
站在coloseum的影子下，仰望着这曾经是罗马战士的战场。眼前看到的虽是一堆废墟，心里却感到十分无奈。
在教堂中的十字架下，仿佛看到了他的背影。我在幻想吗？ 我只想和他说再见...
坐在威尼斯的港口听着海浪的咆哮，好像听到了自己内心中的哭声。我还不能接收他的离去...
还有一股强烈的感觉不知不觉回来了，原来时间还没把它冲走...
一直执著的追逐一些没有成果的事只会把我的自信彻底打破，但我没有后悔过，因为所受的创伤是我成熟的表现。
什么都别说，我不想懂，至少我还拥有美丽的梦。
什么都别说，因为我终于明白，该放手了...
23岁的愿望，学习放手...
站在coloseum的影子下，仰望着这曾经是罗马战士的战场。眼前看到的虽是一堆废墟，心里却感到十分无奈。
在教堂中的十字架下，仿佛看到了他的背影。我在幻想吗？ 我只想和他说再见...
坐在威尼斯的港口听着海浪的咆哮，好像听到了自己内心中的哭声。我还不能接收他的离去...
还有一股强烈的感觉不知不觉回来了，原来时间还没把它冲走...
一直执著的追逐一些没有成果的事只会把我的自信彻底打破，但我没有后悔过，因为所受的创伤是我成熟的表现。
什么都别说，我不想懂，至少我还拥有美丽的梦。
什么都别说，因为我终于明白，该放手了...
23岁的愿望，学习放手...
Saturday 8 August 2009
You can sit beside me when the world comes down
But can I sit beside you when the world comes down? I am tired of standing on weary legs and I could seriously use somebody. There will always be a place for you beside me when the world comes down...
Wednesday 5 August 2009
"Why are you being so nice to people?"
How will you answer? This question has 2 meanings when spoken in different tones. With a soft tone it shows that the person asking is really interested. In a harsher tone it would not be a question anymore, a sentence out of annoyance, a rant. Jon gave a very pure answer without hesitation when prompted by his mum with the same question"...it is not wrong to be nice to people" Such was his personality that there is no wonder everyone warms up to him.
But the truth is, somebody might just take it for granted, whoever he or she might be. There are always people around asking for favours in an unashamed manner. The same type of people will not appear when they doesn't have any favours to ask from you. It is indeed not wrong to be nice to people but do they deserve it if they think you are bounded to fulfill their wishes? In a harsher tone, it means you have to help them out no matter what if you still treat them as friends. Not saying no has indeed encouraged the thick skinned community to roam freely with the thought that it is ok to ask favours cheaply at any time, any place, any condition.
The worse will be during your turn for help, the ones you helped without hesitating in the past suddenly have thousand and one excuses to say no to you. Feeling stupid? Better discard that thought!...it is not wrong to be stupid as well. It comes out of your conscience to help people regardless of their intentions. I certainly don't mind being stupid for a thousand times, if the guilty ones will get their act right one day. I await that day...
Why are you being so nice to people? My heart told me to, as simple as that. I guess jon will nod silently in agreement from above watching over me.
But the truth is, somebody might just take it for granted, whoever he or she might be. There are always people around asking for favours in an unashamed manner. The same type of people will not appear when they doesn't have any favours to ask from you. It is indeed not wrong to be nice to people but do they deserve it if they think you are bounded to fulfill their wishes? In a harsher tone, it means you have to help them out no matter what if you still treat them as friends. Not saying no has indeed encouraged the thick skinned community to roam freely with the thought that it is ok to ask favours cheaply at any time, any place, any condition.
The worse will be during your turn for help, the ones you helped without hesitating in the past suddenly have thousand and one excuses to say no to you. Feeling stupid? Better discard that thought!...it is not wrong to be stupid as well. It comes out of your conscience to help people regardless of their intentions. I certainly don't mind being stupid for a thousand times, if the guilty ones will get their act right one day. I await that day...
Why are you being so nice to people? My heart told me to, as simple as that. I guess jon will nod silently in agreement from above watching over me.
Tuesday 4 August 2009
His last words to me
Wen Soon,
Sorry I could have replied earlier, but I wasn't feeling too well the past few days. The honest truth is yes I was quite sad that u weren't around much when I needed help. Problem is I can never expect anyone for help because help comes from the heart. I was sad but not disappointed because u might have had ur reasons. But in all fairness, in the future, try to be there for the people you care for. Action always apeaks louder than words. Words falter without action.
In return I ask u a favour. I realize you are going thru a part of ur life where self-confidence and successful living seem to be out of the equation. By successful living I mean a lack of spiritual wholeness, that will eventually affect ur physical well-being as well. I have not held a grudge, because I as I said before, I expect nothing. Also life has taken a sudden plunge for me, and there is defintely no time for me to waste holding grudges against the people around me. So don't worry about this.
What I want you to do for me sincerely is start following Enoch and Jun Xiang to the church. I always wanted to bring you, but you seem fearful and hesitant, and I didn't have much of a reason to ask you to. Now in my condition I plead you to give it try, if not for me then for yourself. If you want forgiveness, please ask it from God sincerely. Find out more by asking Enoch or the church members around you. Remember you have nothing to lose here. Starting to go to church doesn't mean you are bound to the church forever. But I'm very very sure the answer to your problems can be found there if you give it your heart, serious thought and consideration.
Once again, I pray that you will stay well and all will go smoothly for you in the future. Spare me a prayer too if you go to church, so I may be healed, despite what the doctors might say. God bless you Wen Soon.
Sorry I could have replied earlier, but I wasn't feeling too well the past few days. The honest truth is yes I was quite sad that u weren't around much when I needed help. Problem is I can never expect anyone for help because help comes from the heart. I was sad but not disappointed because u might have had ur reasons. But in all fairness, in the future, try to be there for the people you care for. Action always apeaks louder than words. Words falter without action.
In return I ask u a favour. I realize you are going thru a part of ur life where self-confidence and successful living seem to be out of the equation. By successful living I mean a lack of spiritual wholeness, that will eventually affect ur physical well-being as well. I have not held a grudge, because I as I said before, I expect nothing. Also life has taken a sudden plunge for me, and there is defintely no time for me to waste holding grudges against the people around me. So don't worry about this.
What I want you to do for me sincerely is start following Enoch and Jun Xiang to the church. I always wanted to bring you, but you seem fearful and hesitant, and I didn't have much of a reason to ask you to. Now in my condition I plead you to give it try, if not for me then for yourself. If you want forgiveness, please ask it from God sincerely. Find out more by asking Enoch or the church members around you. Remember you have nothing to lose here. Starting to go to church doesn't mean you are bound to the church forever. But I'm very very sure the answer to your problems can be found there if you give it your heart, serious thought and consideration.
Once again, I pray that you will stay well and all will go smoothly for you in the future. Spare me a prayer too if you go to church, so I may be healed, despite what the doctors might say. God bless you Wen Soon.
In memory of Jonathan Lee
The fact that he was gone has not sunk in me quite yet. When Michael Jackson died, I was thinking what the fuss this is about. Yes MJ is famous, he left a legacy but it didn't struck me that time that why so many shed tears for him. It is very clear to me now the reason why it is so.
Never have someone left a mark so profound and everlasting in my life. So infectious are his jokes that although lame at times are always a source of laughter for me. Even more infectious are his humble personality, always so down to earth and never the one claiming credit for himself. Although he has his flaws but he is very close to being perfect in my eyes.
He has such strong belief in faith and in his own abilities that I constantly look up upon and draw inspiration on. He suffered a great deal towards the end but never fails to advice me to be strong. I am hugely indebted to him. Sadly to also note that the heart to care for him is there but I didn't draw strength from it and show him how much I cared for him. Ahh, mortals huh...mortals make mistakes do they? Gimme a break...
It was a legacy. A legacy in all of us who are lucky enough to get know him. He will be like what Michael Jackson is for the rest of the world to us. You're not alone, Jon. You will live on in our memories. Although we loved you, but god loved you more and brought you back to His side. Less we forget, Jonathan Lee Chyi Feng (1986-2009). Thanks for the memories and till the next time we meet, my dear friend.
Never have someone left a mark so profound and everlasting in my life. So infectious are his jokes that although lame at times are always a source of laughter for me. Even more infectious are his humble personality, always so down to earth and never the one claiming credit for himself. Although he has his flaws but he is very close to being perfect in my eyes.
He has such strong belief in faith and in his own abilities that I constantly look up upon and draw inspiration on. He suffered a great deal towards the end but never fails to advice me to be strong. I am hugely indebted to him. Sadly to also note that the heart to care for him is there but I didn't draw strength from it and show him how much I cared for him. Ahh, mortals huh...mortals make mistakes do they? Gimme a break...
It was a legacy. A legacy in all of us who are lucky enough to get know him. He will be like what Michael Jackson is for the rest of the world to us. You're not alone, Jon. You will live on in our memories. Although we loved you, but god loved you more and brought you back to His side. Less we forget, Jonathan Lee Chyi Feng (1986-2009). Thanks for the memories and till the next time we meet, my dear friend.
Sunday 2 August 2009
I lost a friend...
He came over and addressed himself as Jonathan Lee during our 1st real meeting during the ice-breaking session in Herr Baum's german language class. He was wearing his trademark sarawak emblazed jacket and we sort of hit it off directly. During the brief 5 years I got to know him, he has never failed to impress me with his humble and down to earth demeanour. I idolized him and wished I had 10% of his intelligence but 100% of his personality. It all happened within a few blinks of eyelids...cancer took him away from us...I cant believe it...
I never got the chance to say good bye...He left in a hurry, in real hurry. A hugely talented future star of our generation has fallen like a meteor onto the ground. He left an irreplaceable void in my life. In fact it was with deep guilt that I wrote this, cherish your every moments with your loved ones and never live to regret later like I did. Jon, I didn't have the chance to show my love for you as a friend when you needed it. There is no more meaning of me saying how sorry I am...you are gone, back to your rightful place alongside Him.
How fragile life is. I wanted to be strong and be a man. I wanted so badly to reclaim your trust. I deeply regret that you will not be able to see it. Tears shed are to no avail if I still fail to put into action the advice you told me. Tonight I wanna cry, but tomorrow I want to live with a renewed vigor and carry out your unfinished vision. I will fulfill my destiny one day and with everything I have dedicated in your memory.
Every single bit of time spent alongside you will not be forgotten. The classes, the trips, the outings, everything bears a memory of you. You are a perfect friend for me and I thank you for that. Your spirit will live on in me. God bless you. May you find eternal peace in heaven. Do Rest In Peace my friend...good bye!
I never got the chance to say good bye...He left in a hurry, in real hurry. A hugely talented future star of our generation has fallen like a meteor onto the ground. He left an irreplaceable void in my life. In fact it was with deep guilt that I wrote this, cherish your every moments with your loved ones and never live to regret later like I did. Jon, I didn't have the chance to show my love for you as a friend when you needed it. There is no more meaning of me saying how sorry I am...you are gone, back to your rightful place alongside Him.
How fragile life is. I wanted to be strong and be a man. I wanted so badly to reclaim your trust. I deeply regret that you will not be able to see it. Tears shed are to no avail if I still fail to put into action the advice you told me. Tonight I wanna cry, but tomorrow I want to live with a renewed vigor and carry out your unfinished vision. I will fulfill my destiny one day and with everything I have dedicated in your memory.
Every single bit of time spent alongside you will not be forgotten. The classes, the trips, the outings, everything bears a memory of you. You are a perfect friend for me and I thank you for that. Your spirit will live on in me. God bless you. May you find eternal peace in heaven. Do Rest In Peace my friend...good bye!
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