还有五天，2010 就开始了。回望着这多事的一年，一切一切总需要一个了断。很希望新的一年不需要再面对生离死别了。
我们大家把包袱放下，向2010迈步！我的故事，又开始了新的一页。
Sunday 27 December 2009
Thursday 24 December 2009
Restaurant City is addictive!
Maybe I should consider running a real life restaurant business myself! Then I shall hire chooi yun, steph, siew lee, zhi hao, choon wei, enoch and jia hui as chefs. jin xuan and shu wen can be the cashier. Nick as the captain, with the best 3 chicks on my facebook pamela, felicia and theresa as waitresses dressed in bunny suit. Maybe for nick's sake, I shall consider kayren as well if he thinks my recommended waitresses not hot enough for him...there will be a kitchen war among the male chefs and the horny captain. jun xiang will be the official photographer and chief promoter whereas the rest of whoever not mentioned will be hired on part time basis to just sit there and dine in so as to make the restaurant look full from the outside. The restaurant business mentality is to present a crowded atmosphere.
Location of the Restaurants? If you are gonna dream then dream big. One next to the FH Aachen, another next to RWTH Aachen, then another the ice cream shop Del Negro itself. Targetted market is foolish germans who have never tried real asian food before and to break the assumption that the asienpfanne from the FH canteen is an authentic asian food. That was a cheap imitation that I am eager to erase from my eyesight as well as the countless imbiss churning out sucky germanized asian food. Why choose Del Negro? Many have witnessed the enormous crowd during summer for their actually average tasting ice cream, I will put steph and jia hui in charge there. It will be the ultimate dessert combo with del negro's ice cream + steph's cheese cake + jia hui's choc rum cake. Initial strategy to pull the crowd in is the endless publication of bikini pictures of the waitresses to create the wow factor. (Sex factor manipulated)
Menu of the main courses? Starting with cheap commercial sushi from jusco to build up fanbase then eventually more exotic meals such as bak kut teh with panadol and teh tarik with marijuana leaves(Drug factor also manipulated). If there is problem with the health censorship, then roll out the ultimate malaysian mamak food as replacement..."maggi goreng dengan perisa maggi". We are doing it the chinese way...low cost, high return but eat on your own peril! Note that any obstacle faced by the business model will be met with even more "ruthless" and "evil" malaysian mamak way! If maggi goreng failed, then I have to consider burger ramli, bubur ayam McD, roti bomb, ribena lychee and so on. As I said the options are limitless when it comes to cheap food that can be sold expensively and in EUROS!!! I can see $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ flowing in....
Ultimate aim is to change the german's way of eating. I hope one day they will hold a sotong ball in one hand and a packet of sugar cane drink in the other, not the boring sausage and beer anymore. How to make all the above mentioned JPA scholars to work for me? Ammend the JPA contract to make it compulsory for everyone to work under me for 6 years to repay the bond. Maybe some loyalty award to the star chef, the star male chef will get sponsored armani suits, armani watches and BMW Z4 as company car if he is the winner. The female winner shall have weekly paid for beauty and spa treatment, 1000 euros shopping voucher monthly. You will wonder who can sustain such business model with such lavish reward. The answer is the germans who will be paying 20 euros for my 1 ringgit worth of maggi goreng. I am sure they will ask for more if the maggi goreng is prepared in a "proper" way and served by the waitresses in a "proper" manner too.
Thats not all if some of you all felt unfairly treated. The official photographer gets a new lens every month, the waitresses get victoria secrets lingerie and agent provocateur perfume, the captain is cared for if the waitresses are in good shape. Before I forget, those hired to just come sit down and eat free is already getting a raw deal. So no extra incentives allocated.
What is all this crap about? It's already crap, why bother to ask? No offence intended. Back to playing restaurant city!
Location of the Restaurants? If you are gonna dream then dream big. One next to the FH Aachen, another next to RWTH Aachen, then another the ice cream shop Del Negro itself. Targetted market is foolish germans who have never tried real asian food before and to break the assumption that the asienpfanne from the FH canteen is an authentic asian food. That was a cheap imitation that I am eager to erase from my eyesight as well as the countless imbiss churning out sucky germanized asian food. Why choose Del Negro? Many have witnessed the enormous crowd during summer for their actually average tasting ice cream, I will put steph and jia hui in charge there. It will be the ultimate dessert combo with del negro's ice cream + steph's cheese cake + jia hui's choc rum cake. Initial strategy to pull the crowd in is the endless publication of bikini pictures of the waitresses to create the wow factor. (Sex factor manipulated)
Menu of the main courses? Starting with cheap commercial sushi from jusco to build up fanbase then eventually more exotic meals such as bak kut teh with panadol and teh tarik with marijuana leaves(Drug factor also manipulated). If there is problem with the health censorship, then roll out the ultimate malaysian mamak food as replacement..."maggi goreng dengan perisa maggi". We are doing it the chinese way...low cost, high return but eat on your own peril! Note that any obstacle faced by the business model will be met with even more "ruthless" and "evil" malaysian mamak way! If maggi goreng failed, then I have to consider burger ramli, bubur ayam McD, roti bomb, ribena lychee and so on. As I said the options are limitless when it comes to cheap food that can be sold expensively and in EUROS!!! I can see $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ flowing in....
Ultimate aim is to change the german's way of eating. I hope one day they will hold a sotong ball in one hand and a packet of sugar cane drink in the other, not the boring sausage and beer anymore. How to make all the above mentioned JPA scholars to work for me? Ammend the JPA contract to make it compulsory for everyone to work under me for 6 years to repay the bond. Maybe some loyalty award to the star chef, the star male chef will get sponsored armani suits, armani watches and BMW Z4 as company car if he is the winner. The female winner shall have weekly paid for beauty and spa treatment, 1000 euros shopping voucher monthly. You will wonder who can sustain such business model with such lavish reward. The answer is the germans who will be paying 20 euros for my 1 ringgit worth of maggi goreng. I am sure they will ask for more if the maggi goreng is prepared in a "proper" way and served by the waitresses in a "proper" manner too.
Thats not all if some of you all felt unfairly treated. The official photographer gets a new lens every month, the waitresses get victoria secrets lingerie and agent provocateur perfume, the captain is cared for if the waitresses are in good shape. Before I forget, those hired to just come sit down and eat free is already getting a raw deal. So no extra incentives allocated.
What is all this crap about? It's already crap, why bother to ask? No offence intended. Back to playing restaurant city!
Today's hall of fame
Legends are introduced into halls of fame but I would like to break the code and honour the efforts of everyone involved in making the party a success. I am a bad organizer so I will know that anyone will be better than me by going that extra mile. Siew Lee did just that. She might be petite, but she commmands respect. She has the magic to make things happen something which I currently lack. Well maybe she is the oldest fairy among all(laughs), but she waves a magic wand and the end result is marvellous. I really hope she can view this as an honest compliment because she would probably think it was too over the board.
Certainly not lacking in effort, I can also feel the food oozing awesomeness. The pasta is of restaurant serving standard. Right up there with her is the ever self demanding zhi hao. Was that my best ever lamb stew? Yes, without a doubt but he said he can yet improve. That says alot of his mentality, being second best is nothing and his only enemy is himself. So where can I place myself, surely the top of the top right! Ya only when in the absence of the above mentioned two. I was actually feeling lucky the dish did not turn out bad because I am as always the see-what-then-add-what-cook. Tell you all an honest truth, I came over with absolute no plan whatsoever because I am too lazy to think of one. The red wine chicken is a product of a planless dish.
A special mention to the herbal tea made by nick. Such small gesture is what I treasure greatly in life. Thank you everyone, you all made my day. For those who are absent due to various reason, it was the meal of friendship, there will always be place for everyone!
Certainly not lacking in effort, I can also feel the food oozing awesomeness. The pasta is of restaurant serving standard. Right up there with her is the ever self demanding zhi hao. Was that my best ever lamb stew? Yes, without a doubt but he said he can yet improve. That says alot of his mentality, being second best is nothing and his only enemy is himself. So where can I place myself, surely the top of the top right! Ya only when in the absence of the above mentioned two. I was actually feeling lucky the dish did not turn out bad because I am as always the see-what-then-add-what-cook. Tell you all an honest truth, I came over with absolute no plan whatsoever because I am too lazy to think of one. The red wine chicken is a product of a planless dish.
A special mention to the herbal tea made by nick. Such small gesture is what I treasure greatly in life. Thank you everyone, you all made my day. For those who are absent due to various reason, it was the meal of friendship, there will always be place for everyone!
Tuesday 22 December 2009
Contradictions of the number game
The number 1 is a coveted number in various aspects such as academics and sporting events. We have arrived at a stage where being number 2 means nothing. The winner takes it all. In the UEFA champions league final, nobody will care who is the other finalist and the Queen sang it beautifully with the lyrics..."no time for losers cause we are the champions"
In social network terms, 2 is a couple. Lovers or husband and wife. 3 is a triangle, 4 is double tag team, 5 is a basketball team, so on and so forth. Ultimately, 11 makes a football team! Nobody can bare living the entire life alone. The funny part is not many can bare having a noisy, fussy, naggy other half too. I rather have some noise in my life right now though provided the noise can be flexibly tuned. Cheers!
Now now, the gist of my ramblings, the contradiction of the number game in terms of organization of activities. The name organizer sounds good right! Wow, Organizer...so orgasmic! Wait a minute you are missing a point here mate. From my point of view, organizer is the poor bastard charged with the task of fulfilling everyone's demands. When you have someone saying, hey I want to go this and that place, go organize. Bless you mate! There is always a tendency for things not to go accordingly to plan. When that happens, please spare the organizer and be grateful you are not in his shoes. Fail to plan, plan to fail is a common blame levelled to the organizer. You don't go screwing the organizer upside down when things go wrong. Why not take a look at yourself first. What have you done or not done at all. I have a strong disdain at those who shake his legs doing nothing then start spewing fire when things go awry. When you have not do anything valuable of note, please be shameful and be quiet, do not take out your own inadequecies on the poor organizer.
Lets get back on track shall we for I have been sidetracked by the unfortunate event of reminiscenting on my torturous path of organizing events. Countless snubs notwithstanding, the cruel stare that I got when my plan didn't work out is the most heart chilling one. My lackasaidal attitude towards organizing events is mainly due to all the chill gathering in my heart. Ever glad to be just a bit part player, I have no doubt that I am a careless and blur person. Hence spare me the misery of organizing events. I can't dribble with a football, so I won't go saying Ronaldo is miles better than Messi because both are thousand miles better than me.
Oh my god, where are we again? The number game! Yes, yes. How many people makes a nice group? Basically no limit if everyone is at ease with each other in the ideal world. We might laugh when we meet, but lets not kid ourselves alright. If you know water and oil will never blend with each other so just stay away from each other then! Adding them together forcefully will only be disastrous in case of fire. Sometimes, one plus one do not equal to two...
your-not-so-famous-blogger pak samahitam (pot and kettle equallyblack in english)
In social network terms, 2 is a couple. Lovers or husband and wife. 3 is a triangle, 4 is double tag team, 5 is a basketball team, so on and so forth. Ultimately, 11 makes a football team! Nobody can bare living the entire life alone. The funny part is not many can bare having a noisy, fussy, naggy other half too. I rather have some noise in my life right now though provided the noise can be flexibly tuned. Cheers!
Now now, the gist of my ramblings, the contradiction of the number game in terms of organization of activities. The name organizer sounds good right! Wow, Organizer...so orgasmic! Wait a minute you are missing a point here mate. From my point of view, organizer is the poor bastard charged with the task of fulfilling everyone's demands. When you have someone saying, hey I want to go this and that place, go organize. Bless you mate! There is always a tendency for things not to go accordingly to plan. When that happens, please spare the organizer and be grateful you are not in his shoes. Fail to plan, plan to fail is a common blame levelled to the organizer. You don't go screwing the organizer upside down when things go wrong. Why not take a look at yourself first. What have you done or not done at all. I have a strong disdain at those who shake his legs doing nothing then start spewing fire when things go awry. When you have not do anything valuable of note, please be shameful and be quiet, do not take out your own inadequecies on the poor organizer.
Lets get back on track shall we for I have been sidetracked by the unfortunate event of reminiscenting on my torturous path of organizing events. Countless snubs notwithstanding, the cruel stare that I got when my plan didn't work out is the most heart chilling one. My lackasaidal attitude towards organizing events is mainly due to all the chill gathering in my heart. Ever glad to be just a bit part player, I have no doubt that I am a careless and blur person. Hence spare me the misery of organizing events. I can't dribble with a football, so I won't go saying Ronaldo is miles better than Messi because both are thousand miles better than me.
Oh my god, where are we again? The number game! Yes, yes. How many people makes a nice group? Basically no limit if everyone is at ease with each other in the ideal world. We might laugh when we meet, but lets not kid ourselves alright. If you know water and oil will never blend with each other so just stay away from each other then! Adding them together forcefully will only be disastrous in case of fire. Sometimes, one plus one do not equal to two...
your-not-so-famous-blogger pak samahitam (pot and kettle equallyblack in english)
Monday 14 December 2009
present
If I am santa claus, my present would be making sure that every day will be x'mas. Present is a gift you have now. Appreciate present, not the past nor the future. Let the present make you happy.
Hohoho...let the festive mood kick in!
Hohoho...let the festive mood kick in!
my room
Dear Santa,
I would like to introduce you to my room. In my room, you can find dust, bio waste, empty bottles, waste papers, plastic bags, unwashed clothes and many other junks scattered all around the limited area of 22 meter square. For many this represents untidiness, irresponsiblity and even portrays a messy lifestyle. My room, my mess...
The pringles and toblerones on the corner table and the dumb bells laying motionless on the floor defines the 2 aspects of my life. The junk food is the unwanted distractions whereas the dumb bells are the heavy task awaiting me to accomplish. There must be something very wrong when you have many tasks ahead but you felt very relaxed.
Mummy said to me many times, fold your blanket after you wake up. Such small details in your daily routine will ultimately shape your future being. It is a healthy habit called discipline. Living alone, cooking alone, eating alone, working alone, every thing alone. Though I hate being alone but I am used to the loneliness now. Discipline is all I need to pull me through this phase of my life.
My room represents my life and it is messy! Are you willing to help me clean up my "room"? For once I hope I don't have to depend on myself. It is christmas soon and I want my "room" clean for X'mas. I want the sunlight back, I want a new "room"...
From : Darren, currently a few thousand miles away from home...
I would like to introduce you to my room. In my room, you can find dust, bio waste, empty bottles, waste papers, plastic bags, unwashed clothes and many other junks scattered all around the limited area of 22 meter square. For many this represents untidiness, irresponsiblity and even portrays a messy lifestyle. My room, my mess...
The pringles and toblerones on the corner table and the dumb bells laying motionless on the floor defines the 2 aspects of my life. The junk food is the unwanted distractions whereas the dumb bells are the heavy task awaiting me to accomplish. There must be something very wrong when you have many tasks ahead but you felt very relaxed.
Mummy said to me many times, fold your blanket after you wake up. Such small details in your daily routine will ultimately shape your future being. It is a healthy habit called discipline. Living alone, cooking alone, eating alone, working alone, every thing alone. Though I hate being alone but I am used to the loneliness now. Discipline is all I need to pull me through this phase of my life.
My room represents my life and it is messy! Are you willing to help me clean up my "room"? For once I hope I don't have to depend on myself. It is christmas soon and I want my "room" clean for X'mas. I want the sunlight back, I want a new "room"...
From : Darren, currently a few thousand miles away from home...
Thursday 10 December 2009
Das Leben ist scheiße.
Niemand kann behaupten, dass sein oder ihr Leben ganz am Anfang bis jetzt alles super gelaufen ist. Wir treten immer auf scheiße in unserem Leben und das macht das Leben so eine große scheiße. Egal was für eine scheiße haben wir inzwischen getroffen oder wenn Pech gehabt sogar gegessen, das Leben oder die Scheiße muss weiter gehen.
Das Leben ist scheiße, aber es gibt noch scheiß Freunde wie ich dabei, sodass wir nicht allein gegen die Scheiße/das Leben spielen müssen.
Ich gebe keine Entschuldigung für mein scheiß geschriebene Deutsch, weil die Sprache auch eine ........ ist. Was fehlt noch in den Satz, also die Scheiße fehlt noch, aber du hast doch genug scheiße in dein Leben! Also, last but not least, isst glücklich und scheiß glücklich! Wenn wir das Leben lieben, müssen wir die Scheiße auch lieben!
Life is shit because you talked and done shit to others, felt like shit because you really have tasted the real shit! Damn! Go freakin brush your teeth...
Das Leben ist scheiße, aber es gibt noch scheiß Freunde wie ich dabei, sodass wir nicht allein gegen die Scheiße/das Leben spielen müssen.
Ich gebe keine Entschuldigung für mein scheiß geschriebene Deutsch, weil die Sprache auch eine ........ ist. Was fehlt noch in den Satz, also die Scheiße fehlt noch, aber du hast doch genug scheiße in dein Leben! Also, last but not least, isst glücklich und scheiß glücklich! Wenn wir das Leben lieben, müssen wir die Scheiße auch lieben!
Life is shit because you talked and done shit to others, felt like shit because you really have tasted the real shit! Damn! Go freakin brush your teeth...
和朋友一起走过忧伤的日子
或许是冬天的错吧？我身边的朋友一个接一个都在emo着。我很无奈也感到无助，我自己何尝不是那种人呢？现在从另一个角度看，我还蛮恨那只会怨天尤人的我。我想帮他们，但自己也需要人帮忙啊。23岁了，为什么想东西还是那么不成熟...
有些人借酒消愁，另一些则痛不欲生。我们都要长大，这世界除了爱情，还有亲情和友情。虽说失去任何一个是很痛苦，但是有一些东西是公平的。大家拥有的时间是一样的，是在乎你如何运用它。一天24小时掌握在你手中，与其哭着过，不如笑着过。如果付出努力没有回报，那是因为你一直都钻牛角尖。谁说过努力一定有回报，那没有回报你就干脆什么都不做了吗？正确的态度是付出了，如果还是不行，那得学习承受失败并把它放下，不让它成为你的包袱。
生命不是一个礼物，所以更加不能随便糟蹋它。做人难，人难做，难做人...但是我不觉得死了就一了百了。自寻短见的人，多数都不得善终，往往死后比活着还痛苦。
话说会来，你们如果想喝，我陪你喝。这不是一个好朋友该做的，但是我希望可以陪伴你们一起走过忧伤的日子...一步...一步...走向美好的未来。我不是天生乐观的人，但是我知道每一天只要还有一口气在，一定有机会快快乐乐的过。
很喜欢抄袭tvb的我，送jh，zh和yl一人一个糖莲子，希望你们能苦中有一点甜。
有些人借酒消愁，另一些则痛不欲生。我们都要长大，这世界除了爱情，还有亲情和友情。虽说失去任何一个是很痛苦，但是有一些东西是公平的。大家拥有的时间是一样的，是在乎你如何运用它。一天24小时掌握在你手中，与其哭着过，不如笑着过。如果付出努力没有回报，那是因为你一直都钻牛角尖。谁说过努力一定有回报，那没有回报你就干脆什么都不做了吗？正确的态度是付出了，如果还是不行，那得学习承受失败并把它放下，不让它成为你的包袱。
生命不是一个礼物，所以更加不能随便糟蹋它。做人难，人难做，难做人...但是我不觉得死了就一了百了。自寻短见的人，多数都不得善终，往往死后比活着还痛苦。
话说会来，你们如果想喝，我陪你喝。这不是一个好朋友该做的，但是我希望可以陪伴你们一起走过忧伤的日子...一步...一步...走向美好的未来。我不是天生乐观的人，但是我知道每一天只要还有一口气在，一定有机会快快乐乐的过。
很喜欢抄袭tvb的我，送jh，zh和yl一人一个糖莲子，希望你们能苦中有一点甜。
Tuesday 1 December 2009
I see the world through your eyes
And it is indeed beautiful. Dad and mum loved you to bits and you are a little princess to your brothers. You are quite the naughty and pretty spoiled lil sis now, no thanks to me wahahaha! You just have to do the same trick and you know I will get you things you want. (from my lil sis's eyes)
The guy in front of you is quite decent ;) abit too shy for his own good and pretty nervous when his sight met yours but he is just a friend. The feel is not quite right though. (miss w from 4 years ago)
The future is still within your grasp and you have to go out and show'em what you are made of. (when I see my reflection on the mirror)
I am in love with the world through the eyes of the girl who is still around the morning after. (from Elliott Smith song say yes)
The guy in front of you is quite decent ;) abit too shy for his own good and pretty nervous when his sight met yours but he is just a friend. The feel is not quite right though. (miss w from 4 years ago)
The future is still within your grasp and you have to go out and show'em what you are made of. (when I see my reflection on the mirror)
I am in love with the world through the eyes of the girl who is still around the morning after. (from Elliott Smith song say yes)
Sunday 29 November 2009
曾经...
曾经很单纯，不问付出多还是少。现在长大了反而变质了，往往喜欢以小人之心去猜度他人。 我知道这世界是残酷的， 但是如果人人都像我那么小人，试问还有希望可言吗？ 我不知不觉地被改变了...
我的自我批判毛病又发作了，或许处女座的人就是那么喜欢完美，那么喜欢挑剔。 说其他的吧，我很想念我以前的朋友。我望着旧照片和现在的他们比较，心中感到很安慰，因为他们都活得很好呀。 虽然友情没以前那么好了，我相信我们见面时应该还可以闲谈几句吧。 人，要往前望。 没错，要一直的往前望。 但是我也希望是和故友一起往前望。 我相信我最错的是一直以为友情是永在的，不必那么费心去维持。 我几乎在德国的三年日子里，一通电话，一封信，甚至一封简单的sms也没寄过给朋友。 我一厢情愿的任为朋友是不会走掉的。我,真的错了...
我的自我批判毛病又发作了，或许处女座的人就是那么喜欢完美，那么喜欢挑剔。 说其他的吧，我很想念我以前的朋友。我望着旧照片和现在的他们比较，心中感到很安慰，因为他们都活得很好呀。 虽然友情没以前那么好了，我相信我们见面时应该还可以闲谈几句吧。 人，要往前望。 没错，要一直的往前望。 但是我也希望是和故友一起往前望。 我相信我最错的是一直以为友情是永在的，不必那么费心去维持。 我几乎在德国的三年日子里，一通电话，一封信，甚至一封简单的sms也没寄过给朋友。 我一厢情愿的任为朋友是不会走掉的。我,真的错了...
Friday 27 November 2009
I am nobody, but I am entitled to an opinion
There is a common rule in determining whether you are a likable person or not which is rather simple. When you notice people around you suddenly avoiding you and being rather cold towards you, the signs are there that you have done something wrong which irked the people around you. Of course there is always the possibility that people are jealous of your whatsoever success and therefore went all the way out to boycott you. Such malice should not be tolerated by any means. At the same time, we should always review our ownself before pointing the blame at others. It is always easy and sometimes pleasurable to criticize or poke fun at others but when the roles are reversed how do you feel? Everybody should be held responsible in this situation where both parties are liable to any potential damages caused.
As wrong as you are in criticizing a particular person, it is even more wrong to overreact with violence under provocation. I have a notoriously bad reputation in poking fun at others and I certainly have received my fair share of rebukes. Some call it karma, some said you got it coming! Fair and square, so it seems...Living in this society, you cannot go out and say something hurtful to others and expect the other party to accept it as a joke. That is still not the worse it seems. The most annoying aspect is that many people refuse to pratice the give and take concept. I am sure I am guilty as well but I have always restrained myself not to beg for favours so cheaply. There IS a difference in asking for a helping hand and insisting others to help you. Are you entitled to be angry if others refused you? Who are you? Are you some God or some mighty emperor that other people must entertain your request and demands? I have to learn to say NO but at the same time must accept it graciously when people said NO to me as well.
I am not perfect and will never ever be but I have learned to talk as I see it because even the imperfect and insigficant ones have a right to express their opinions. I am a pot calling the kettle black because the kettle refuse to believe that it is black as well! Do you see the point?
As wrong as you are in criticizing a particular person, it is even more wrong to overreact with violence under provocation. I have a notoriously bad reputation in poking fun at others and I certainly have received my fair share of rebukes. Some call it karma, some said you got it coming! Fair and square, so it seems...Living in this society, you cannot go out and say something hurtful to others and expect the other party to accept it as a joke. That is still not the worse it seems. The most annoying aspect is that many people refuse to pratice the give and take concept. I am sure I am guilty as well but I have always restrained myself not to beg for favours so cheaply. There IS a difference in asking for a helping hand and insisting others to help you. Are you entitled to be angry if others refused you? Who are you? Are you some God or some mighty emperor that other people must entertain your request and demands? I have to learn to say NO but at the same time must accept it graciously when people said NO to me as well.
I am not perfect and will never ever be but I have learned to talk as I see it because even the imperfect and insigficant ones have a right to express their opinions. I am a pot calling the kettle black because the kettle refuse to believe that it is black as well! Do you see the point?
Tuesday 24 November 2009
7 pounds
"seven gifts to seven individuals deemed worthy by Will Smith's character, apparently to atone for seven deaths caused by the auto accident he caused in the plot."
This movie is rather old and I just happened to watch it recently and I was deeply moved by the concept of repaying your debt with a pound of flesh. Although the ending is deeply disturbing as Smith's character committed suicide but it clearly brought the intended message abroad. Morality issues aside, the idea of giving a new lease of life to others by donating your organs to those in need should be lauded as an noble act. At the same time it must not be done in such a cruel way as portrayed in the movie.
What is playing in my mind right now is that the intention might be good and lets say the outcome turned out as intended, would you ever condone whatever foul play involved in the process of achieving the greater good? Throughout the history we have witnessed many sacrifices being made willingly or unwillingly in order to achieve a greater good and it is all up to the future generations to judge our actions.
I know I am questioning some fundamentals of life but what I really want to know is whether it is acceptable to sin in the process in order to achieve the happy ending everyone wanted. Many will be cynical that the outcome would not turn out to be as wished and the sin will be even deeper. It is really actually an non issue because we can never foresee the future!............................I am having an headache now because the angel and the devil is fighting in my brain, so I shall leave it that way.
The cup of water is half full or it is half empty? The egg comes first or the chicken comes first? I think sleep comes first!!!
This movie is rather old and I just happened to watch it recently and I was deeply moved by the concept of repaying your debt with a pound of flesh. Although the ending is deeply disturbing as Smith's character committed suicide but it clearly brought the intended message abroad. Morality issues aside, the idea of giving a new lease of life to others by donating your organs to those in need should be lauded as an noble act. At the same time it must not be done in such a cruel way as portrayed in the movie.
What is playing in my mind right now is that the intention might be good and lets say the outcome turned out as intended, would you ever condone whatever foul play involved in the process of achieving the greater good? Throughout the history we have witnessed many sacrifices being made willingly or unwillingly in order to achieve a greater good and it is all up to the future generations to judge our actions.
I know I am questioning some fundamentals of life but what I really want to know is whether it is acceptable to sin in the process in order to achieve the happy ending everyone wanted. Many will be cynical that the outcome would not turn out to be as wished and the sin will be even deeper. It is really actually an non issue because we can never foresee the future!............................I am having an headache now because the angel and the devil is fighting in my brain, so I shall leave it that way.
The cup of water is half full or it is half empty? The egg comes first or the chicken comes first? I think sleep comes first!!!
Saturday 21 November 2009
A glowing tribute
To all my dearest seniors in germany,
It suddenly struck my mind that time is running short and the happy days are indeed coming to an end. In a matter of a month most of them will be done with their studies and probably heading back home one after another. The countless parties, lunches, dinners and movie sessions will probably go on but with even less participants from now onwards.
For there are millions of reasons to seperate there will always only be 1 reason to gather, love. In this context this love of friendship has brought many souls together in a foreign land and made me feel really right at home. I do have many friends of the same age or younger but the feelings of friendship are different with seniors all together. I am being careful not to mention their taboo, the age factor. They are like elder brothers and sisters to me in that sense where I look up to them.
Everyone has their unique virtues that I can learn from, some possess maturity, some with diligence and intelligence in abundance, some with fierce ambition, some with the joyful and graceful demeanour. Most of them do share the common thing though, they have been very successsful role models.
There is time to gather as well as time to part ways although I am pretty sure I will see them again soon. I dedicate this glowing tribute to every single one of you and offer a big thank you for all the priceless moments spent together. The future is bright and it is our time to show them what we can do. Yes we can!
Age is a funny little number thingy, the bigger the number, the better you become. So I will jokingly say good riddance to the 24 year olds and it is time the 23s take over the helm. On a side note, Aachen and Düren are such peaceful places nowadays in their absence...hahaha!
It suddenly struck my mind that time is running short and the happy days are indeed coming to an end. In a matter of a month most of them will be done with their studies and probably heading back home one after another. The countless parties, lunches, dinners and movie sessions will probably go on but with even less participants from now onwards.
For there are millions of reasons to seperate there will always only be 1 reason to gather, love. In this context this love of friendship has brought many souls together in a foreign land and made me feel really right at home. I do have many friends of the same age or younger but the feelings of friendship are different with seniors all together. I am being careful not to mention their taboo, the age factor. They are like elder brothers and sisters to me in that sense where I look up to them.
Everyone has their unique virtues that I can learn from, some possess maturity, some with diligence and intelligence in abundance, some with fierce ambition, some with the joyful and graceful demeanour. Most of them do share the common thing though, they have been very successsful role models.
There is time to gather as well as time to part ways although I am pretty sure I will see them again soon. I dedicate this glowing tribute to every single one of you and offer a big thank you for all the priceless moments spent together. The future is bright and it is our time to show them what we can do. Yes we can!
Age is a funny little number thingy, the bigger the number, the better you become. So I will jokingly say good riddance to the 24 year olds and it is time the 23s take over the helm. On a side note, Aachen and Düren are such peaceful places nowadays in their absence...hahaha!
Tuesday 17 November 2009
2012 feat the unfinished story
The header is just some crazy idea running in my mind right now. 2012 is the latest movie everyone crazed about which I still haven't watch and the unfinished story is an original piece of piano music composed by the brilliant isisip. To me they both have the same theme...sadness and sorrow which is to my ultimate liking.
Brings me back to the notion happiness can be found within sadness, which means in the presence of sadness, happiness can be more profound and being appreciated more. This is akin to being in the midst of darkness and you found a small faint candle light shining warmly back at you.
If 2012 is true, yeah I mean IF, who would want it to be true for god's sake! That means we only have barely 3 more years to live. Why do most of us fear death? The reason is plain simple...we human beings have heart. The heart to care and love is why many are reluctant to face death. To love and to care can be of course used in many different ways and it is not up to me to say if any of the ways are wrong. Somebody loved wealth and fame more than anything else while some cherish relationships and bonds more. In the end you fear death because you do not wish to forego things you have in this world. With that in mind, it doesn't matter whether 2012 is true or otherwise. The planet earth and its' inhabitants are all part of this unfinished story. This is the god damned reason why we have to learn history...it is all other people's unfinished story!
If darren is the director of 2012, he will put this piano piece the unfinished story as the ending theme song.
Brings me back to the notion happiness can be found within sadness, which means in the presence of sadness, happiness can be more profound and being appreciated more. This is akin to being in the midst of darkness and you found a small faint candle light shining warmly back at you.
If 2012 is true, yeah I mean IF, who would want it to be true for god's sake! That means we only have barely 3 more years to live. Why do most of us fear death? The reason is plain simple...we human beings have heart. The heart to care and love is why many are reluctant to face death. To love and to care can be of course used in many different ways and it is not up to me to say if any of the ways are wrong. Somebody loved wealth and fame more than anything else while some cherish relationships and bonds more. In the end you fear death because you do not wish to forego things you have in this world. With that in mind, it doesn't matter whether 2012 is true or otherwise. The planet earth and its' inhabitants are all part of this unfinished story. This is the god damned reason why we have to learn history...it is all other people's unfinished story!
If darren is the director of 2012, he will put this piano piece the unfinished story as the ending theme song.
Friday 30 October 2009
I read, I laugh and I cry
That is the only reasonable reason I can come up with my not so recent interest in blogging. It has the purpose to show me my past. Sweet and bitter, hence bittersweet. I am not surprised with the respond I got from whoever who bothers reading my blog. Doing some reading of older posts do really make me feel bittersweet.
Laughing at my stupid oldself, the stubborn and lazy asshole. I didn't progress much but if I can laugh at things I wrote in the heat during those moments it means I have let it go. Bitter of the no show when jon needed me. Sweet as the theory that hard work does pay is proven correct.
Life is a book, my book is blessed with the warmth my family and friends gave me. It is a good story thus far. A page as a year, a paragraph as a month and a sentence as a day. With 23 pages filled, my life has been truly a blessed one. I thank god for what I have and hope I can live on with a conviction to speak good of others, do good for others and be good to others. 存好心，说好话，做好事. The only thing I won't do is naming my daughter chin san hao. 陈三好, I think any daughter will hate you if you ever name her so.
I do not aspire my book to be like the topsellers of Dan Browns and J.K. Rowlings. A boring but peaceful story with a happy ending is what I dreamed of. Some characters might have perished along the way in my story line, I shall continue this story...one word at a time...till the last word of the book. This is my life thus far, how is yours?
Laughing at my stupid oldself, the stubborn and lazy asshole. I didn't progress much but if I can laugh at things I wrote in the heat during those moments it means I have let it go. Bitter of the no show when jon needed me. Sweet as the theory that hard work does pay is proven correct.
Life is a book, my book is blessed with the warmth my family and friends gave me. It is a good story thus far. A page as a year, a paragraph as a month and a sentence as a day. With 23 pages filled, my life has been truly a blessed one. I thank god for what I have and hope I can live on with a conviction to speak good of others, do good for others and be good to others. 存好心，说好话，做好事. The only thing I won't do is naming my daughter chin san hao. 陈三好, I think any daughter will hate you if you ever name her so.
I do not aspire my book to be like the topsellers of Dan Browns and J.K. Rowlings. A boring but peaceful story with a happy ending is what I dreamed of. Some characters might have perished along the way in my story line, I shall continue this story...one word at a time...till the last word of the book. This is my life thus far, how is yours?
dream, dream not
I have a dream, you have a dream, he has a dream, she has a dream...dream high, dream more, dream not! I have a dream but I do not work towards it then it remains a dream that I can only see in one third of my lifespan. It's ok to dream a dream so sweet and pray that it never ends but in this fair world there are dreams that can never be. Dream of fame, dream of wealth, dream of another half that is perfect, dream on...
Since it is so bad to dream why bother to dream? Firstly it is absolutely free for this world where money talks and you end up a happier person eventhough only temporarily. Martin Luther King had a dream and Obama realized it, The American Dream. Not as popular as he might be before, he is still what exactly the american dream is about. Dreamworks continues to churn out high quality movies that captured our imagination with the dream. The day you stop dreaming, you lose the drive, the sight of your future and the dream you dreamed. Les Miserables sung a song called I dreamed a dream. Listen to it, it brought susan boyle fame.
Dreaming is my forte but not working. I dreamed with passion but worked without. Such irony that is no wonder that I have not graduate yet. I can imagine that lim zhi hao laughing at me right now...DAMNIT! On second thought I can have a try with Dreamworks though...
Since it is so bad to dream why bother to dream? Firstly it is absolutely free for this world where money talks and you end up a happier person eventhough only temporarily. Martin Luther King had a dream and Obama realized it, The American Dream. Not as popular as he might be before, he is still what exactly the american dream is about. Dreamworks continues to churn out high quality movies that captured our imagination with the dream. The day you stop dreaming, you lose the drive, the sight of your future and the dream you dreamed. Les Miserables sung a song called I dreamed a dream. Listen to it, it brought susan boyle fame.
Dreaming is my forte but not working. I dreamed with passion but worked without. Such irony that is no wonder that I have not graduate yet. I can imagine that lim zhi hao laughing at me right now...DAMNIT! On second thought I can have a try with Dreamworks though...
priceless serenity
It's not easy but I have found inner peace. Totally at ease with myself, possibly because I don't have to sit for exams anymore. Sitting at home doing nothing is a luxury itself that many call it pure laziness and a parasite that can be do without in today's society. I know very well what I will become if I continue my lazy ways but this is a priceless moment of serenity. Life is good when you don't have to worry about money, career and maybe meeting a girl some day. The same applies for the gals. MEN = Money + womEN. The M from money is not an issue right now and I think I can cope without the latter EN from women as long as the M is still in abundance.
Everyone will wish that their parents are so rich that they don't have to work. I am no exception but I always bear in mind the sweat and blood they put in to earn every cent for the family. Rich or poor, it is the result of your hardwork. You are born rich not because of luck but rather your ancestors had worked dilligently to amass the wealth you possess today. My parents worked hard because they believe in a future where we the children can live a good life. It is the ultimate aim of every parent. You might dislike their approach to parenting and communicating with you but never ever doubt their intention to provide you with a future. Some said your children is your creditor in the previous life and you are paying back good money. I would see it this way - your children is your investment of the future. You invest your time and money in your children and hope to see your investment grow into something you would be proud of one day. This investment is a life time binding one, be it at a loss or otherwise you are held liable for it. In sharemarket investment you have the choice to abandon ship and start afresh. Can you discard your children as easily as that? This form of investment is the most rewarding one as well for it is your own mirror image, your future representative when you are six feet under.
I do aim high in life but my actions are not in sync. The least of what I can do is to ensure my parents will be silently proud to have me as their son. I might not be rich and famous but I am proud to have parents that believe in my future. I carry the surname of Chin with fierce pride! So dad and mum, do I get some form of reward for this declaration? Jokes aside, I have some serious work ahead of me. This priceless moment of serinity, enjoy it while you can Darren. The next time you feel like taking a break you could be 50.
I dreamed a dream where it never ends but there are dreams that can never be.
Everyone will wish that their parents are so rich that they don't have to work. I am no exception but I always bear in mind the sweat and blood they put in to earn every cent for the family. Rich or poor, it is the result of your hardwork. You are born rich not because of luck but rather your ancestors had worked dilligently to amass the wealth you possess today. My parents worked hard because they believe in a future where we the children can live a good life. It is the ultimate aim of every parent. You might dislike their approach to parenting and communicating with you but never ever doubt their intention to provide you with a future. Some said your children is your creditor in the previous life and you are paying back good money. I would see it this way - your children is your investment of the future. You invest your time and money in your children and hope to see your investment grow into something you would be proud of one day. This investment is a life time binding one, be it at a loss or otherwise you are held liable for it. In sharemarket investment you have the choice to abandon ship and start afresh. Can you discard your children as easily as that? This form of investment is the most rewarding one as well for it is your own mirror image, your future representative when you are six feet under.
I do aim high in life but my actions are not in sync. The least of what I can do is to ensure my parents will be silently proud to have me as their son. I might not be rich and famous but I am proud to have parents that believe in my future. I carry the surname of Chin with fierce pride! So dad and mum, do I get some form of reward for this declaration? Jokes aside, I have some serious work ahead of me. This priceless moment of serinity, enjoy it while you can Darren. The next time you feel like taking a break you could be 50.
I dreamed a dream where it never ends but there are dreams that can never be.
Thursday 15 October 2009
You are a nice guy, so what?
How I hate the tag. Friends would always recall fondly of me as the one being nice to others and easy to bully. Perhaps I am being harsh on certain things but I really do not like the image of being a soft person that people like to take for granted, bully or even misunderstand. I do possess a darker side which I do not show very often. So I might be blur, that's what the majority of you all think. Why am I slow as well? It is because I have plenty of options lined up in my brain but do not know which to choose hence the perceived slowness and bluriness. You think you know me well? You are wrong if you think I am really blur. It might just be your mere perception of me...
My 3 cents worth of opinion on fashion
Not a very great dresser myself and also not a person blessed with the good looks and body to simply wear anything and still be dashing and charming. The only thing I can do is maybe dress up as a commoner and try to blend into the society. So for a average bloke like me, I am opting for the London look - trench coat, skinny jeans, leather boots. With all these on, I am not outstanding but rather normal and blended into the londoners style. Some said I copied choon wei's style but in fashion terms-copying means the style is widely accepted. Of course nobody is indentical and we have our own preferences in colours and cuttings. I am no fashion guru wannabe but I always only wanted to present my most perfect self to others. Since I do not fare well in the handsomeness department, might as well compensate with the personality and clothing department. Whatever I might say, personality still counts. A confident and optimistic person will always have double the attractiveness compared to the rest. Jon has and had it. I am still working on it. Everybody says I'm a nice bloke. The truth is I do not like the nice guy tag. A nice guy is good as friend but not the 1st you have in mind as lovers. Fact!
London-3rd review
Still my preferred choice of city to work in and stay in albeit the sucky weather, high cost of living and congestion. If given a choice I would like to stay in bayswater and commute to city centre for work every day with the underground tube. I have always fancied the life of living in a metropolis with a fast paced lifestyle. Londoners are fashion consious and the British accent is the best accent that I have ever heard! Here you can get Malaysian food without actually being in Malaysia. No matter what the other thinks about London, it is the best city in Europe for me. The place I wish I could live in the future.
Monday 12 October 2009
The sleepless night in Russell square
Lying down on the not so comfy double decker bed and staring at the dark ceilling above me. Lim is sleeping soundly below me. In fact everyone is asleep in the room except me. It has been a fruitful trip and a money burning one as well. Not to mention the fat gaining. Well this is also the 1st time I am posting through my iPhone. It's been a while that I planned to get one and finally it is right now in my hands. Gosh I guess I have to find a way to fall asleep!
Sunday 4 October 2009
Empty Decorations
I wake in the dark
With showers of life
Moments of emptiness around
Floating away
No other hope
Reality brings me
Into the ground
What can I do
What can I say
I need a place to hide away
Just for a while, just for a smile
Just for a life I used to know
The perfect song were filled with
Words of love and not with anger
What if they go
What if they leave me far behind
'Cause I don't wanna be alone... (uh oh)
Living life for on my own (uh oh)
I don't want to live my life in isolation
Filled with empty decorations
'Cause I want to be with people that I know
Who would do the things I do (uh oh)
Making all my dreams come true (uh oh)
I don't recognize the shadows at my door
Though I've seen them all before
Because the only thing I really want...
Is to be with you...(this last verse was relevant a few months ago)
Everybody has a personal demon and in fact one per day, but the greatest fear is facing it alone...the life in isolation and filled with empty decorations.
With showers of life
Moments of emptiness around
Floating away
No other hope
Reality brings me
Into the ground
What can I do
What can I say
I need a place to hide away
Just for a while, just for a smile
Just for a life I used to know
The perfect song were filled with
Words of love and not with anger
What if they go
What if they leave me far behind
'Cause I don't wanna be alone... (uh oh)
Living life for on my own (uh oh)
I don't want to live my life in isolation
Filled with empty decorations
'Cause I want to be with people that I know
Who would do the things I do (uh oh)
Making all my dreams come true (uh oh)
I don't recognize the shadows at my door
Though I've seen them all before
Because the only thing I really want...
Is to be with you...(this last verse was relevant a few months ago)
Everybody has a personal demon and in fact one per day, but the greatest fear is facing it alone...the life in isolation and filled with empty decorations.
The reason
for getting drunk and losing self control? As the song from hoobastank with the same name goes "I'm not a perfect person. There's many things that I wished I didn't do..." Well I was relieved that exams are truly over and I can see the end of my torment. If choosing the wrong engineering course is already a hard pill to swallow, imagine studying just for the sake of getting your degree. So getting drunk is no big deal.
There are probably things I'll never say out blatantly but I am always willing to write it down. My ever overzealous attempt to talk more is just to stop me thinking the wrong things at the wrong time. It has been so for quite some time, the happier the atmosphere is, the emptier I felt for it was in the absence of his presence. And also my own conscience that had punished me for being such a useless friend.
I don't want to trod down the path that I have to be so "pretentious" to the extent people view me differently. I am a typical virgo in the sense that I want people to understand me but I don't want to tell them about myself. Why am I always secluding myself with my ipod? It's my shell to retreat to when I don't want to present myself, that myself I deemed imperfect for others to see. Another virgo characteristics it seems. I don't need others to help me, the lyrics of the songs carefully chosen by me can do the job better than a million words said.
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
P.S. the "you" is subjective, don't put your ownself as "you"
Darren chants "Viva La Gloria" as he can forget about studying for exams.
There are probably things I'll never say out blatantly but I am always willing to write it down. My ever overzealous attempt to talk more is just to stop me thinking the wrong things at the wrong time. It has been so for quite some time, the happier the atmosphere is, the emptier I felt for it was in the absence of his presence. And also my own conscience that had punished me for being such a useless friend.
I don't want to trod down the path that I have to be so "pretentious" to the extent people view me differently. I am a typical virgo in the sense that I want people to understand me but I don't want to tell them about myself. Why am I always secluding myself with my ipod? It's my shell to retreat to when I don't want to present myself, that myself I deemed imperfect for others to see. Another virgo characteristics it seems. I don't need others to help me, the lyrics of the songs carefully chosen by me can do the job better than a million words said.
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
P.S. the "you" is subjective, don't put your ownself as "you"
Darren chants "Viva La Gloria" as he can forget about studying for exams.
Wednesday 16 September 2009
15Malaysia - Lumpur
In my opinion the most heart-warming of all. Everyone has their own definition and interpretation on "Tanah" and "Air" when asked on separate accounts. But when it comes to a combined word of "Tanahair", the magic sets in. Tanahair unifies opinions, a word that holds such signficant power that it is unthinkable that when divided becomes so weak and meaningless.
One nation united, one love undivided. So why there are two systems in education, finance, jurisdication, and so on so forth? 1Malaysia or 2Malaysia? Sama-sama lahir di tanahair sama, jangan lawan sudah-LAH!
www.15malaysia.com - Watch it LAH!
One nation united, one love undivided. So why there are two systems in education, finance, jurisdication, and so on so forth? 1Malaysia or 2Malaysia? Sama-sama lahir di tanahair sama, jangan lawan sudah-LAH!
www.15malaysia.com - Watch it LAH!
Traces of past
It must be a lie if I ever tell anybody that I have overcome the grief I suffered during the past 2 months or so. The feelings went numb but not gone. There were traces of the past everywhere in the city. The road to the university, the ice cream shop, the park, the apartment, the room 2041, the sofa picked up from the dump which is now being used as a bed for somebody else. Everything bears a cruel memory of what it used to be. Those were the happier days. It used to be the 3 of us eating ice-cream together in the chilly winter, having potshots at each other's fashion sense while trying on clothes in departmental stores, studying together for the never-ending cycle of exams, cooking together, movie nights in room 2041 and some pretty dodgy drinking sessions in bars.
Today I was walking alone down the same street we 3 used to trod down happily just a year or so ago. I am licking the same ice-cream from the same ice-cream shop and heading home with the road we only know too well ourselves. The only obvious difference this time around is that I am alone. Memories came and go. Jokes and conversations were coming back like old films playing in the back of the brain. 1st the bakery shop at the corner, the RWTH building, the park, the basketball court, and finally room 2041 which he used to reside. Used to reside...how would things be when nothing had changed at all. Status quo? Will he still reside there? No, not with his abilities. He should have gotten his bachelor's degree by now. The brightest star of our batch, he will have a great future ahead of him, no?
Time is a great healer but not the ultimate cure. I think I need a new environment. A new beginning...
P.S. Thou shall not worry, the virgo sign has it that only he who can cure himself shall be the one to face the world when he is ready.
Today I was walking alone down the same street we 3 used to trod down happily just a year or so ago. I am licking the same ice-cream from the same ice-cream shop and heading home with the road we only know too well ourselves. The only obvious difference this time around is that I am alone. Memories came and go. Jokes and conversations were coming back like old films playing in the back of the brain. 1st the bakery shop at the corner, the RWTH building, the park, the basketball court, and finally room 2041 which he used to reside. Used to reside...how would things be when nothing had changed at all. Status quo? Will he still reside there? No, not with his abilities. He should have gotten his bachelor's degree by now. The brightest star of our batch, he will have a great future ahead of him, no?
Time is a great healer but not the ultimate cure. I think I need a new environment. A new beginning...
P.S. Thou shall not worry, the virgo sign has it that only he who can cure himself shall be the one to face the world when he is ready.
Monday 14 September 2009
The Virgo Conundrum
都說處女座另類，雙重性格，甚至有點神經質，其實原因只有一個，處女座的一切都要隨自己外顯的性格而轉，姑且稱之為"狀態"。處女座狀態好的時候，可以將自己聰明、細膩、能幹、溫情、幽默、有內涵等優良品質完全外展，此時他們顯得如此完美，光芒四射，並且可以表現得非常外向、健談，容易與人打成一片（這本非他們的性格）。而一旦處女座狀態不好，便會變成另一個人，甚至非常窩囊，一事無成，不過通常此時他們都躲避外在的干擾,所以讓人感覺有點間歇性自閉症)因為同為水星守護，所以處女和雙子一樣善變，但雙子善變的是心思，處女善變的卻是情緒。
很多時候處女座要面對很多實際的瑣事，這時的處女座便不得不在冷中面對周圍世界：要麼說話做事很不自然，有做作的痕跡；要麼便極度冷漠和被動，對誰都不理不睬。其實處女座很清楚自己現在的樣子，但他們無力改變和控制自己的情緒，只能選擇瘋狂地逃避一切。
他們想的是：與其很不自然地面對你，尷尬地和你說些無關痛癢地話，或是因和平時反差太大而被人說成表裡不一，性格怪異，還不如先躲一陣子，等調節好了以後再出來。所以，在與人交往中，他們只會和不得不交流的人（實在躲不掉）或是完全陌生的人（反正無所謂）交談，而和熟悉的朋友反而疏遠。所以.你在他心中地位越重，他躲得你越遠。特別是戀人.
而且,大家都知道處女座的人有嚴重的完美主義傾向,所以就有了所謂的\"處女座的人最喜歡若即若離\"。原因很簡單：他只想給你一個最好最完美的自己，而不願讓你看到他無助脆弱的一面。所以請記住，有時處女座對你冷，絕不是你說錯做錯什麼，這是他們正常的生理現象，他們只是不想讓嚴寒和冰霜傷害了你（可事實上這種做法已經傷害）。不必難過，因為他們在乎你的話，他們的內心比你還要難過、自責和內疚！他們所能做的，只希望快點調整好情緒，回到你的身邊。
正基於以上兩點，處女座有時便會表現出非常另類的行為和思維模式。他們的性格也很多來源於此：不喜主動，不善交際（也可以熱情，只是今天熱了，終有一天會冷的），不愛表現，不喜拋頭露面（萬一哪天情緒無法把握狀態不好時，豈不大失臉面），諸如此類。
關於"潔癖"——並非處女都有潔癖，很多處女座並不愛乾淨，但卻要求整潔，他們更多的是井然有序，不喜歡別人破壞他們所整理和佈置的"完美"格局。處女座更多的是有精神潔癖。一旦觸碰到他們精神上的禁區，嚴重時會表現得歇斯底里。
關於"花心"——一般說來處女座絕不花心，忠誠是他們的代名詞。異性關係多很可能是他們需要確定一個好人緣和自己有魅力，來反擊那些普遍觀點。一旦找到心中真愛，他會呵護你一輩子，只要你能給他安全感，他永不背叛，心中眼中唯你一人。尋花問柳，紅杏出牆這些事與他們絕緣（一是責任感所致，二是怕麻煩）。
關於"聰明" ——不似雙子靈活機巧，不像水瓶創意非凡，也不是天蠍的那種計畫周密，處女座更多體現的是智慧。細膩、理性、好學加上十二星座裡一流的洞察力和最強的邏輯思維能力，處女座想不聰明都難。沒事少在處女座面前信口開河，隨意撒謊，很多偽紗他們一眼便能看透；也別跟他們玩什麼心計，你玩不過他們的。處女是那種可以把你賣了你還得向他道謝的類型。沒事也少跟處女座辯論，他們沒理也可找出理，甚至找出不止一條理來。處女是永遠不會吃虧的。
關於"單純"——處女座很純真，但絕不單純，他們內心複雜得讓人難以想像，很多不經意的事可能都是他們精心佈置的。處女座也總在純潔和好色之間徘徊，這一點最難說清。不過他們真正的內心是極其善良的，寧可自己苦也不願傷害任何人，心靈如水晶一般晶瑩剔透。
關於"幽默"——都說處女座冷若冰霜，缺乏幽默。多和他們接觸吧，你會體會到什麼是冷幽默，什麼是真正的幽默，而並非品位低俗的搞笑。
關於"遲鈍"——別看你和處女座說某些提議時他們半天才反應過來，在你說好的一瞬間，他們腦子裡可能已經轉過五六個你這項提議會造成的後果（通常是消極後果）了。他們總是想得太多，絕非想得太慢。 (My favourite sentence!)
關於"自私"——處女座的自私覺不是獅子的那種惟我獨尊，也不是水瓶的以自我為中心。處女座正因為是無私的，所以顯得自私。（能夠理解嗎？）因為處女不想傷害任何人。
關於"逃避" ——由於處女座性格上的因素，他們通常會顯得壓力很大。當週遭的事物已無法掌控，或是自己的情緒無法調節好時，他們會瘋狂地逃避，墮落自己，這種狀況通常對別人無害，卻是傷害自己，讓所有愛他們的人感到心碎。不過不用太擔心，過一陣子他們自己會好的，他們天性的自我批判精神很快便會起作用。處女座一般不會徹底墮落，墮落前可能都已留有餘地，只是在等待著希望的來臨。甚至有時墮落都是做給別人看的。
關於"內涵"——處女座有涵養這一點是肯定的。在成長中不斷吸取教訓，不斷學習，取人之長來豐富自己的內涵。因為他們感覺到情緒無法把握，而這些是自己可以踏踏實實做到的，將來一定有幫助。這是他們所追求的完美主義目標。
處女座就是一個表面神秘到難以琢磨，說穿了卻又很簡單的星座。最接近神的人？可能吧，處女座喜歡這樣
來標榜自己。因為他們確實有超凡脫俗的一面。他們的內心接近了神，可是身在這個世界，不能不食人間煙火吧，所以必須得戴著一個面具活在這個世界上。
處女座喜歡和人說些曖昧的話，對心儀的對象卻不好意思表白。
處女座希望別人瞭解自己，卻又只將能公佈的那一部分對外展示。
處女座是最有責任感的人了，可很多時候卻害怕承擔責任。
Passage taken from hdtvb forum. This is akin to reading my own mindset. It's not easy to be a virgo!
很多時候處女座要面對很多實際的瑣事，這時的處女座便不得不在冷中面對周圍世界：要麼說話做事很不自然，有做作的痕跡；要麼便極度冷漠和被動，對誰都不理不睬。其實處女座很清楚自己現在的樣子，但他們無力改變和控制自己的情緒，只能選擇瘋狂地逃避一切。
他們想的是：與其很不自然地面對你，尷尬地和你說些無關痛癢地話，或是因和平時反差太大而被人說成表裡不一，性格怪異，還不如先躲一陣子，等調節好了以後再出來。所以，在與人交往中，他們只會和不得不交流的人（實在躲不掉）或是完全陌生的人（反正無所謂）交談，而和熟悉的朋友反而疏遠。所以.你在他心中地位越重，他躲得你越遠。特別是戀人.
而且,大家都知道處女座的人有嚴重的完美主義傾向,所以就有了所謂的\"處女座的人最喜歡若即若離\"。原因很簡單：他只想給你一個最好最完美的自己，而不願讓你看到他無助脆弱的一面。所以請記住，有時處女座對你冷，絕不是你說錯做錯什麼，這是他們正常的生理現象，他們只是不想讓嚴寒和冰霜傷害了你（可事實上這種做法已經傷害）。不必難過，因為他們在乎你的話，他們的內心比你還要難過、自責和內疚！他們所能做的，只希望快點調整好情緒，回到你的身邊。
正基於以上兩點，處女座有時便會表現出非常另類的行為和思維模式。他們的性格也很多來源於此：不喜主動，不善交際（也可以熱情，只是今天熱了，終有一天會冷的），不愛表現，不喜拋頭露面（萬一哪天情緒無法把握狀態不好時，豈不大失臉面），諸如此類。
關於"潔癖"——並非處女都有潔癖，很多處女座並不愛乾淨，但卻要求整潔，他們更多的是井然有序，不喜歡別人破壞他們所整理和佈置的"完美"格局。處女座更多的是有精神潔癖。一旦觸碰到他們精神上的禁區，嚴重時會表現得歇斯底里。
關於"花心"——一般說來處女座絕不花心，忠誠是他們的代名詞。異性關係多很可能是他們需要確定一個好人緣和自己有魅力，來反擊那些普遍觀點。一旦找到心中真愛，他會呵護你一輩子，只要你能給他安全感，他永不背叛，心中眼中唯你一人。尋花問柳，紅杏出牆這些事與他們絕緣（一是責任感所致，二是怕麻煩）。
關於"聰明" ——不似雙子靈活機巧，不像水瓶創意非凡，也不是天蠍的那種計畫周密，處女座更多體現的是智慧。細膩、理性、好學加上十二星座裡一流的洞察力和最強的邏輯思維能力，處女座想不聰明都難。沒事少在處女座面前信口開河，隨意撒謊，很多偽紗他們一眼便能看透；也別跟他們玩什麼心計，你玩不過他們的。處女是那種可以把你賣了你還得向他道謝的類型。沒事也少跟處女座辯論，他們沒理也可找出理，甚至找出不止一條理來。處女是永遠不會吃虧的。
關於"單純"——處女座很純真，但絕不單純，他們內心複雜得讓人難以想像，很多不經意的事可能都是他們精心佈置的。處女座也總在純潔和好色之間徘徊，這一點最難說清。不過他們真正的內心是極其善良的，寧可自己苦也不願傷害任何人，心靈如水晶一般晶瑩剔透。
關於"幽默"——都說處女座冷若冰霜，缺乏幽默。多和他們接觸吧，你會體會到什麼是冷幽默，什麼是真正的幽默，而並非品位低俗的搞笑。
關於"遲鈍"——別看你和處女座說某些提議時他們半天才反應過來，在你說好的一瞬間，他們腦子裡可能已經轉過五六個你這項提議會造成的後果（通常是消極後果）了。他們總是想得太多，絕非想得太慢。 (My favourite sentence!)
關於"自私"——處女座的自私覺不是獅子的那種惟我獨尊，也不是水瓶的以自我為中心。處女座正因為是無私的，所以顯得自私。（能夠理解嗎？）因為處女不想傷害任何人。
關於"逃避" ——由於處女座性格上的因素，他們通常會顯得壓力很大。當週遭的事物已無法掌控，或是自己的情緒無法調節好時，他們會瘋狂地逃避，墮落自己，這種狀況通常對別人無害，卻是傷害自己，讓所有愛他們的人感到心碎。不過不用太擔心，過一陣子他們自己會好的，他們天性的自我批判精神很快便會起作用。處女座一般不會徹底墮落，墮落前可能都已留有餘地，只是在等待著希望的來臨。甚至有時墮落都是做給別人看的。
關於"內涵"——處女座有涵養這一點是肯定的。在成長中不斷吸取教訓，不斷學習，取人之長來豐富自己的內涵。因為他們感覺到情緒無法把握，而這些是自己可以踏踏實實做到的，將來一定有幫助。這是他們所追求的完美主義目標。
處女座就是一個表面神秘到難以琢磨，說穿了卻又很簡單的星座。最接近神的人？可能吧，處女座喜歡這樣
來標榜自己。因為他們確實有超凡脫俗的一面。他們的內心接近了神，可是身在這個世界，不能不食人間煙火吧，所以必須得戴著一個面具活在這個世界上。
處女座喜歡和人說些曖昧的話，對心儀的對象卻不好意思表白。
處女座希望別人瞭解自己，卻又只將能公佈的那一部分對外展示。
處女座是最有責任感的人了，可很多時候卻害怕承擔責任。
Passage taken from hdtvb forum. This is akin to reading my own mindset. It's not easy to be a virgo!
Sunday 6 September 2009
This is not the way it should end, its the way it should begin
Colbie Caillat's new song begin again. The most meaningful part of the song is the sentence above..."this is not the way it should end, its the way it should begin"
I have mourned, thinked hard and been guilt ridden even till now. His passing away will always leave an indelible mark in my life. He had left us to be by His side, so said by everyone comforting me. There is no more meaning of pointing fingers at anyone. It is a fact I didn't put words into action and have been ignorant of his condition. I am guilty of hesitating about attending his funeral. I weighed in money and thousands of other excuses instead of being steadfast with the thought to send him off for the last time. Without dwelling too much on the past. Lets just finish everything in one sentence. My intention to show care and concern is there but it wasn't reflected in my actions. "Words falter without action" that was his advice for the rest of my life...
Instead of being buried with demons of the past and being guilty with my own wrongdoings. I should and must change myself first. Someone told me rightly that I am being insecure of myself and low on self esteem. It wouldn't really bother me anymore about what others think of me, I must be responsible to my own self. To take good care of my own health, to repay my parents' never ending love and faith in me, to be the brother that my siblings deserve and proud to have and finally to be the friend that can be trusted and depend on.
He might be gone, but he left a message for me. This is not the way it should end, its the way it should begin...begin again! I'm grateful that I can begin again and really show care and concern to those I loved and hold dear. Jon will only forgive me when I can learn to forgive myself.
PS: I do not intend to be emotional with every post I wrote, but that is me being true to myself, to express and to share...
I have mourned, thinked hard and been guilt ridden even till now. His passing away will always leave an indelible mark in my life. He had left us to be by His side, so said by everyone comforting me. There is no more meaning of pointing fingers at anyone. It is a fact I didn't put words into action and have been ignorant of his condition. I am guilty of hesitating about attending his funeral. I weighed in money and thousands of other excuses instead of being steadfast with the thought to send him off for the last time. Without dwelling too much on the past. Lets just finish everything in one sentence. My intention to show care and concern is there but it wasn't reflected in my actions. "Words falter without action" that was his advice for the rest of my life...
Instead of being buried with demons of the past and being guilty with my own wrongdoings. I should and must change myself first. Someone told me rightly that I am being insecure of myself and low on self esteem. It wouldn't really bother me anymore about what others think of me, I must be responsible to my own self. To take good care of my own health, to repay my parents' never ending love and faith in me, to be the brother that my siblings deserve and proud to have and finally to be the friend that can be trusted and depend on.
He might be gone, but he left a message for me. This is not the way it should end, its the way it should begin...begin again! I'm grateful that I can begin again and really show care and concern to those I loved and hold dear. Jon will only forgive me when I can learn to forgive myself.
PS: I do not intend to be emotional with every post I wrote, but that is me being true to myself, to express and to share...
Thursday 3 September 2009
Where can stubborness lead you to?
Theoretically no where. The end result of your stubborness will not necessarily be identical with the result you had in mind when you decided to trod down this path. A stubborn person will not easily give up and let go of the things he is holding or in some cases losing. I can easily give you many consequences of being stubborn. Inability to take in kind advices, unable to forget, forgive and most important to let go. In the TVB series "Burning Flame", there was this particular block head that was so stubborn that he ended up losing a limb and nearly committed suicide. Of course it is all fictional but in real life, stubborness is indeed tiring. Certain aspects in life will not change no matter how hard you try, but one thing you can change is your own self. You can't go on and on about how hard certain things are when you refuse to change your own mindset.
Having faith is also a kind of stubborness. But the difference is that this faith is something that can be trusted upon and had brought upon success on countless occasions. It is however merely words in play, a failed example we call it stubborness whereas the successful one is named as belief and having faith. Before this crap goes out of control, I intend to end it with my own punch line...Have faith in your own stubborness because it will still lead you to a place called no where!
Having faith is also a kind of stubborness. But the difference is that this faith is something that can be trusted upon and had brought upon success on countless occasions. It is however merely words in play, a failed example we call it stubborness whereas the successful one is named as belief and having faith. Before this crap goes out of control, I intend to end it with my own punch line...Have faith in your own stubborness because it will still lead you to a place called no where!
Tuesday 1 September 2009
The memoirs of imperfection
I looked at your direction,
you paid me no attention,
was it all my imagination,
or just mere hallucination.
I have an ambition,
but lacking in motivation,
to put things into motion,
and gain recognition.
I needed salvation,
and also appreciation,
but with sudden inspiration,
I wrote this memoirs of imperfection.
Rainbow is a vision,
as well as an illusion,
If you have determination,
Visions will come into fruition.
Words falter without action,
Actions falter without direction,
with so many complications,
It is indeed the memoirs of imperfection.
you paid me no attention,
was it all my imagination,
or just mere hallucination.
I have an ambition,
but lacking in motivation,
to put things into motion,
and gain recognition.
I needed salvation,
and also appreciation,
but with sudden inspiration,
I wrote this memoirs of imperfection.
Rainbow is a vision,
as well as an illusion,
If you have determination,
Visions will come into fruition.
Words falter without action,
Actions falter without direction,
with so many complications,
It is indeed the memoirs of imperfection.
Monday 31 August 2009
Merdeka!
Malaysia is celebrating its birthday again. For many people it will just be another day off to chill out at home. How many people will really embrace the real spirit of merdeka? If patriotism was based solely on flag waving and singing of national anthem, then many will be labelled as not patriotic, me included. Patriotism to me is way more than that, it is the unconditional and undying love for the country you were born in and grew up in. It is your root and you are willing to shed blood to protect it.
Merdeka signifies the freedom from colonization as well as the freedom of speech which is lacking at the moment in Malaysia. But lets not spoil the day with certain bad practices that are already deeply entrenched in our society. Malaysia with all its flaws is still a beautiful country. Diversity is our strength, not a weakness to be exploited by spineless politicians. We are different but we are all proud Malaysian.
Happy Merdeka from DC. May our motherland be blessed with everlasting peace and a matured democracy.
Merdeka signifies the freedom from colonization as well as the freedom of speech which is lacking at the moment in Malaysia. But lets not spoil the day with certain bad practices that are already deeply entrenched in our society. Malaysia with all its flaws is still a beautiful country. Diversity is our strength, not a weakness to be exploited by spineless politicians. We are different but we are all proud Malaysian.
Happy Merdeka from DC. May our motherland be blessed with everlasting peace and a matured democracy.
Sunday 30 August 2009
Luck? Even champions need that.
With rose tinted glasses on, I am glad to know that Man Utd whipped the sorry asses of the gunners-became-goners. Luck or no luck, Man Utd post ronaldo era still won while being pathetic and well under their usual high rolling standards. Imagine what the score will be when the team is on form. The haters are fast to claim that it was all luck. I tell you what, championships are gained in games like this when you played poorly and still claim victory. The bare naked facts are that arsenal outplayed Man Utd but still lost...reminds me of the 2005 FA cup final where the goners were totally outplayed and still ended up with the trophy. What comes around goes around. Point being made.
The swashbuckling counter attacking football with ronaldo at the focal point of it might have been a thing of the past but players come, players go...the club will still move on. Glory and Manchester United will not be separated as long as the wise old man is still at the helm. Everyone hates Man Utd because we can't seem to stop winning! We love to be hated because it means we are winning! UNITED WE RULE
The swashbuckling counter attacking football with ronaldo at the focal point of it might have been a thing of the past but players come, players go...the club will still move on. Glory and Manchester United will not be separated as long as the wise old man is still at the helm. Everyone hates Man Utd because we can't seem to stop winning! We love to be hated because it means we are winning! UNITED WE RULE
Friday 28 August 2009
I have been true to myself
And the relief was immense. Even thought the regret of not actually trying hard enough still lingers on...
I learned a great deal of what not to do, and most important is to be myself. There is no point to portray an image that is not true to the others. I still carry many flaws with me. But there is one thing I know, I am willing to bruise my head again although the answer is clear. Man, I am stubborn and that is truly me!
I learned a great deal of what not to do, and most important is to be myself. There is no point to portray an image that is not true to the others. I still carry many flaws with me. But there is one thing I know, I am willing to bruise my head again although the answer is clear. Man, I am stubborn and that is truly me!
Thursday 27 August 2009
Optimism breeds wealth
Forget the get rich quick schemes, the answer lies within you. You hold your own destiny. An optimist will take hardships and obstacles thrown at him as a form of challenge and thrive on it. A pessimist will however wallow in self pity and admit defeat before it even started. The wealthy ones all share a common belief, a belief that there will be a tomorrow. Thus they place their money on what they believe in, the future. It doesn't matter how loaded you are or otherwise, the key is whether you chose to believe in a better future or not.
Besides that resilience is a by product of optimism. Always looking at the bright side of life makes your life happier and thus less susceptible to feeling down and moody. With optimism you can soldier on in life and keep things rolling even in the bad times. You might fall on the way but do remember to give a light pat to your sore bottom, shrug your shoulders and pick yourself up and continue your journey.
An inspiration gained through reader's digest,
DC
Besides that resilience is a by product of optimism. Always looking at the bright side of life makes your life happier and thus less susceptible to feeling down and moody. With optimism you can soldier on in life and keep things rolling even in the bad times. You might fall on the way but do remember to give a light pat to your sore bottom, shrug your shoulders and pick yourself up and continue your journey.
An inspiration gained through reader's digest,
DC
Maturity vs Resilience
Ever wonder the day you wake up with a new mindset? The stubbornness of the past and countless lamp posts and mortar brick walls you banged your poor little head against, everything sounds funny to you when you looked back. How silly you can be when you are young huh...
I can be so irrational when it comes to certain things but 1 thing for sure is that I know what I'm doing but I probably used the wrong way in many different situations. Cracking ill mannered jokes while what she actually need is just a listening ear, acting childish just to attract her attention, being really blur because of my couldn't be bothered attitude. The reason why many people think that I am directionless is because I did a few mistakes and people used a magnifying glass on it. This directionless guy managed to bring his family to tour london, paris, barcelona, vienna, prague and still come back in one piece tells you something right?
Why bother to explain now when in the past I let it all flow like water under the bridge? It is your opinion and your mouth and it is not within my limits to stop what other people would think of me...bla...bla... This is the past. It is time to confront problems head on. To say out things in the mind and not keep it to myself anymore. To actually say I don't mind what others think of me is inaccurate as well. In fact I do mind, and especially what she thinks of me. Why would I mind? It is because I do really care about her.
With age still hopefully on my side, I hope my timekeeping will improve with age and so does the blurriness. Losing a friend and facing rejections and failures in examinations do feel like being stabbed in the heart many times at the same spot but compared to greater things in life you will learn sooner or later to let go of disappointments and get on with life.
I have failed in exams, I have been robbed of all my belongings, I have got rejected, I have lost 2 friends but I am still here standing, smiling back at you. I am more resilient than you people think I am. But I still remember what jon said, words falter without action. Rejudge me!
I can be so irrational when it comes to certain things but 1 thing for sure is that I know what I'm doing but I probably used the wrong way in many different situations. Cracking ill mannered jokes while what she actually need is just a listening ear, acting childish just to attract her attention, being really blur because of my couldn't be bothered attitude. The reason why many people think that I am directionless is because I did a few mistakes and people used a magnifying glass on it. This directionless guy managed to bring his family to tour london, paris, barcelona, vienna, prague and still come back in one piece tells you something right?
Why bother to explain now when in the past I let it all flow like water under the bridge? It is your opinion and your mouth and it is not within my limits to stop what other people would think of me...bla...bla... This is the past. It is time to confront problems head on. To say out things in the mind and not keep it to myself anymore. To actually say I don't mind what others think of me is inaccurate as well. In fact I do mind, and especially what she thinks of me. Why would I mind? It is because I do really care about her.
With age still hopefully on my side, I hope my timekeeping will improve with age and so does the blurriness. Losing a friend and facing rejections and failures in examinations do feel like being stabbed in the heart many times at the same spot but compared to greater things in life you will learn sooner or later to let go of disappointments and get on with life.
I have failed in exams, I have been robbed of all my belongings, I have got rejected, I have lost 2 friends but I am still here standing, smiling back at you. I am more resilient than you people think I am. But I still remember what jon said, words falter without action. Rejudge me!
Sunday 23 August 2009
23岁的执著
望着罗马的trevi瀑布，思路回到3年前曾经来过此地时的心情。相比之下，风景依在但是人却变了，我不认得3年前的我了。曾经明白烦恼是自己招来的，别人是不能添加烦恼给你。 你不去烦恼，你的心就不会有烦恼。现在不同了，几乎每一天都好像活在一种透不过气的黑暗密室中。学习放下包袱？ 我不曾给过自己任何压力，我甚至是在得过且过度日子。朋友走了，我得把包袱杠起来了。因为是时候面对事实了。我不能再承受另一个朋友的离去，而且是在我没有付出努力后的情况下离去。
站在coloseum的影子下，仰望着这曾经是罗马战士的战场。眼前看到的虽是一堆废墟，心里却感到十分无奈。
在教堂中的十字架下，仿佛看到了他的背影。我在幻想吗？ 我只想和他说再见...
坐在威尼斯的港口听着海浪的咆哮，好像听到了自己内心中的哭声。我还不能接收他的离去...
还有一股强烈的感觉不知不觉回来了，原来时间还没把它冲走...
一直执著的追逐一些没有成果的事只会把我的自信彻底打破，但我没有后悔过，因为所受的创伤是我成熟的表现。
什么都别说，我不想懂，至少我还拥有美丽的梦。
什么都别说，因为我终于明白，该放手了...
23岁的愿望，学习放手...
站在coloseum的影子下，仰望着这曾经是罗马战士的战场。眼前看到的虽是一堆废墟，心里却感到十分无奈。
在教堂中的十字架下，仿佛看到了他的背影。我在幻想吗？ 我只想和他说再见...
坐在威尼斯的港口听着海浪的咆哮，好像听到了自己内心中的哭声。我还不能接收他的离去...
还有一股强烈的感觉不知不觉回来了，原来时间还没把它冲走...
一直执著的追逐一些没有成果的事只会把我的自信彻底打破，但我没有后悔过，因为所受的创伤是我成熟的表现。
什么都别说，我不想懂，至少我还拥有美丽的梦。
什么都别说，因为我终于明白，该放手了...
23岁的愿望，学习放手...
Saturday 8 August 2009
You can sit beside me when the world comes down
But can I sit beside you when the world comes down? I am tired of standing on weary legs and I could seriously use somebody. There will always be a place for you beside me when the world comes down...
Wednesday 5 August 2009
"Why are you being so nice to people?"
How will you answer? This question has 2 meanings when spoken in different tones. With a soft tone it shows that the person asking is really interested. In a harsher tone it would not be a question anymore, a sentence out of annoyance, a rant. Jon gave a very pure answer without hesitation when prompted by his mum with the same question"...it is not wrong to be nice to people" Such was his personality that there is no wonder everyone warms up to him.
But the truth is, somebody might just take it for granted, whoever he or she might be. There are always people around asking for favours in an unashamed manner. The same type of people will not appear when they doesn't have any favours to ask from you. It is indeed not wrong to be nice to people but do they deserve it if they think you are bounded to fulfill their wishes? In a harsher tone, it means you have to help them out no matter what if you still treat them as friends. Not saying no has indeed encouraged the thick skinned community to roam freely with the thought that it is ok to ask favours cheaply at any time, any place, any condition.
The worse will be during your turn for help, the ones you helped without hesitating in the past suddenly have thousand and one excuses to say no to you. Feeling stupid? Better discard that thought!...it is not wrong to be stupid as well. It comes out of your conscience to help people regardless of their intentions. I certainly don't mind being stupid for a thousand times, if the guilty ones will get their act right one day. I await that day...
Why are you being so nice to people? My heart told me to, as simple as that. I guess jon will nod silently in agreement from above watching over me.
But the truth is, somebody might just take it for granted, whoever he or she might be. There are always people around asking for favours in an unashamed manner. The same type of people will not appear when they doesn't have any favours to ask from you. It is indeed not wrong to be nice to people but do they deserve it if they think you are bounded to fulfill their wishes? In a harsher tone, it means you have to help them out no matter what if you still treat them as friends. Not saying no has indeed encouraged the thick skinned community to roam freely with the thought that it is ok to ask favours cheaply at any time, any place, any condition.
The worse will be during your turn for help, the ones you helped without hesitating in the past suddenly have thousand and one excuses to say no to you. Feeling stupid? Better discard that thought!...it is not wrong to be stupid as well. It comes out of your conscience to help people regardless of their intentions. I certainly don't mind being stupid for a thousand times, if the guilty ones will get their act right one day. I await that day...
Why are you being so nice to people? My heart told me to, as simple as that. I guess jon will nod silently in agreement from above watching over me.
Tuesday 4 August 2009
His last words to me
Wen Soon,
Sorry I could have replied earlier, but I wasn't feeling too well the past few days. The honest truth is yes I was quite sad that u weren't around much when I needed help. Problem is I can never expect anyone for help because help comes from the heart. I was sad but not disappointed because u might have had ur reasons. But in all fairness, in the future, try to be there for the people you care for. Action always apeaks louder than words. Words falter without action.
In return I ask u a favour. I realize you are going thru a part of ur life where self-confidence and successful living seem to be out of the equation. By successful living I mean a lack of spiritual wholeness, that will eventually affect ur physical well-being as well. I have not held a grudge, because I as I said before, I expect nothing. Also life has taken a sudden plunge for me, and there is defintely no time for me to waste holding grudges against the people around me. So don't worry about this.
What I want you to do for me sincerely is start following Enoch and Jun Xiang to the church. I always wanted to bring you, but you seem fearful and hesitant, and I didn't have much of a reason to ask you to. Now in my condition I plead you to give it try, if not for me then for yourself. If you want forgiveness, please ask it from God sincerely. Find out more by asking Enoch or the church members around you. Remember you have nothing to lose here. Starting to go to church doesn't mean you are bound to the church forever. But I'm very very sure the answer to your problems can be found there if you give it your heart, serious thought and consideration.
Once again, I pray that you will stay well and all will go smoothly for you in the future. Spare me a prayer too if you go to church, so I may be healed, despite what the doctors might say. God bless you Wen Soon.
Sorry I could have replied earlier, but I wasn't feeling too well the past few days. The honest truth is yes I was quite sad that u weren't around much when I needed help. Problem is I can never expect anyone for help because help comes from the heart. I was sad but not disappointed because u might have had ur reasons. But in all fairness, in the future, try to be there for the people you care for. Action always apeaks louder than words. Words falter without action.
In return I ask u a favour. I realize you are going thru a part of ur life where self-confidence and successful living seem to be out of the equation. By successful living I mean a lack of spiritual wholeness, that will eventually affect ur physical well-being as well. I have not held a grudge, because I as I said before, I expect nothing. Also life has taken a sudden plunge for me, and there is defintely no time for me to waste holding grudges against the people around me. So don't worry about this.
What I want you to do for me sincerely is start following Enoch and Jun Xiang to the church. I always wanted to bring you, but you seem fearful and hesitant, and I didn't have much of a reason to ask you to. Now in my condition I plead you to give it try, if not for me then for yourself. If you want forgiveness, please ask it from God sincerely. Find out more by asking Enoch or the church members around you. Remember you have nothing to lose here. Starting to go to church doesn't mean you are bound to the church forever. But I'm very very sure the answer to your problems can be found there if you give it your heart, serious thought and consideration.
Once again, I pray that you will stay well and all will go smoothly for you in the future. Spare me a prayer too if you go to church, so I may be healed, despite what the doctors might say. God bless you Wen Soon.
In memory of Jonathan Lee
The fact that he was gone has not sunk in me quite yet. When Michael Jackson died, I was thinking what the fuss this is about. Yes MJ is famous, he left a legacy but it didn't struck me that time that why so many shed tears for him. It is very clear to me now the reason why it is so.
Never have someone left a mark so profound and everlasting in my life. So infectious are his jokes that although lame at times are always a source of laughter for me. Even more infectious are his humble personality, always so down to earth and never the one claiming credit for himself. Although he has his flaws but he is very close to being perfect in my eyes.
He has such strong belief in faith and in his own abilities that I constantly look up upon and draw inspiration on. He suffered a great deal towards the end but never fails to advice me to be strong. I am hugely indebted to him. Sadly to also note that the heart to care for him is there but I didn't draw strength from it and show him how much I cared for him. Ahh, mortals huh...mortals make mistakes do they? Gimme a break...
It was a legacy. A legacy in all of us who are lucky enough to get know him. He will be like what Michael Jackson is for the rest of the world to us. You're not alone, Jon. You will live on in our memories. Although we loved you, but god loved you more and brought you back to His side. Less we forget, Jonathan Lee Chyi Feng (1986-2009). Thanks for the memories and till the next time we meet, my dear friend.
Never have someone left a mark so profound and everlasting in my life. So infectious are his jokes that although lame at times are always a source of laughter for me. Even more infectious are his humble personality, always so down to earth and never the one claiming credit for himself. Although he has his flaws but he is very close to being perfect in my eyes.
He has such strong belief in faith and in his own abilities that I constantly look up upon and draw inspiration on. He suffered a great deal towards the end but never fails to advice me to be strong. I am hugely indebted to him. Sadly to also note that the heart to care for him is there but I didn't draw strength from it and show him how much I cared for him. Ahh, mortals huh...mortals make mistakes do they? Gimme a break...
It was a legacy. A legacy in all of us who are lucky enough to get know him. He will be like what Michael Jackson is for the rest of the world to us. You're not alone, Jon. You will live on in our memories. Although we loved you, but god loved you more and brought you back to His side. Less we forget, Jonathan Lee Chyi Feng (1986-2009). Thanks for the memories and till the next time we meet, my dear friend.
Sunday 2 August 2009
I lost a friend...
He came over and addressed himself as Jonathan Lee during our 1st real meeting during the ice-breaking session in Herr Baum's german language class. He was wearing his trademark sarawak emblazed jacket and we sort of hit it off directly. During the brief 5 years I got to know him, he has never failed to impress me with his humble and down to earth demeanour. I idolized him and wished I had 10% of his intelligence but 100% of his personality. It all happened within a few blinks of eyelids...cancer took him away from us...I cant believe it...
I never got the chance to say good bye...He left in a hurry, in real hurry. A hugely talented future star of our generation has fallen like a meteor onto the ground. He left an irreplaceable void in my life. In fact it was with deep guilt that I wrote this, cherish your every moments with your loved ones and never live to regret later like I did. Jon, I didn't have the chance to show my love for you as a friend when you needed it. There is no more meaning of me saying how sorry I am...you are gone, back to your rightful place alongside Him.
How fragile life is. I wanted to be strong and be a man. I wanted so badly to reclaim your trust. I deeply regret that you will not be able to see it. Tears shed are to no avail if I still fail to put into action the advice you told me. Tonight I wanna cry, but tomorrow I want to live with a renewed vigor and carry out your unfinished vision. I will fulfill my destiny one day and with everything I have dedicated in your memory.
Every single bit of time spent alongside you will not be forgotten. The classes, the trips, the outings, everything bears a memory of you. You are a perfect friend for me and I thank you for that. Your spirit will live on in me. God bless you. May you find eternal peace in heaven. Do Rest In Peace my friend...good bye!
I never got the chance to say good bye...He left in a hurry, in real hurry. A hugely talented future star of our generation has fallen like a meteor onto the ground. He left an irreplaceable void in my life. In fact it was with deep guilt that I wrote this, cherish your every moments with your loved ones and never live to regret later like I did. Jon, I didn't have the chance to show my love for you as a friend when you needed it. There is no more meaning of me saying how sorry I am...you are gone, back to your rightful place alongside Him.
How fragile life is. I wanted to be strong and be a man. I wanted so badly to reclaim your trust. I deeply regret that you will not be able to see it. Tears shed are to no avail if I still fail to put into action the advice you told me. Tonight I wanna cry, but tomorrow I want to live with a renewed vigor and carry out your unfinished vision. I will fulfill my destiny one day and with everything I have dedicated in your memory.
Every single bit of time spent alongside you will not be forgotten. The classes, the trips, the outings, everything bears a memory of you. You are a perfect friend for me and I thank you for that. Your spirit will live on in me. God bless you. May you find eternal peace in heaven. Do Rest In Peace my friend...good bye!
Thursday 30 July 2009
while waiting for sunrise...
I decided to draw 1 myself and go to bed after fed up staying up whole night waiting for the freaking sun rise that many claimed to be around 4 am in germany. (Its 5.12 and counting...)
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- 0 -
/ | \ It's legen...wait for it...wait for it...dary!
It's a brilliant piece of art isn't it...it's not too shiny and the best part is that it can be customized to your own preferences.
Blogger Darren-go-bonkers-while-waiting-sunrise signing off...a lame effort is still better than no effort at all. After all this time spluttering shit...that freaking sun is still not freaking arise. Damn!
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/ | \ It's legen...wait for it...wait for it...dary!
It's a brilliant piece of art isn't it...it's not too shiny and the best part is that it can be customized to your own preferences.
Blogger Darren-go-bonkers-while-waiting-sunrise signing off...a lame effort is still better than no effort at all. After all this time spluttering shit...that freaking sun is still not freaking arise. Damn!
give and take
Literally means that you give something and get back something in return. A slight calculative person will mind if he or she got something that was equal in value with what was contributed in the first place. A very calculative person always looks for the best deal that suits their own needs without giving anything in return...in 1 word, selfish. A calculative person is usually meticulous and good in arithmetics...it's a fact isn't it? Another important aspect is the thick skinned feature, asking for favors in unashamed manner.
On the contrary, a person who gives but expects nothing in return is a saint, a living legend that most people failed to appreciate and cherish. They are called kind and generous in more subtle word play but it literally translates into naive and dumb ass. Which type of person are you in? The blogger finds himself in the non categorized section...slight calculative(opinion varies in this case)but very bad in arithmetics...in other sense he is closer to being a saint without himself knowing it(because he gave more after some silly mathematical mistakes).
Self appraisal done in a subtle way is called syok sendiri secara stylish...the 4s.
4s Blogger Darren signing off...
On the contrary, a person who gives but expects nothing in return is a saint, a living legend that most people failed to appreciate and cherish. They are called kind and generous in more subtle word play but it literally translates into naive and dumb ass. Which type of person are you in? The blogger finds himself in the non categorized section...slight calculative(opinion varies in this case)but very bad in arithmetics...in other sense he is closer to being a saint without himself knowing it(because he gave more after some silly mathematical mistakes).
Self appraisal done in a subtle way is called syok sendiri secara stylish...the 4s.
4s Blogger Darren signing off...
Sunday 12 July 2009
我寻找的，会不会就在我身边？
我会不会忽略了身边的一些东西呢？ 寻找了这么久，是不是早已找到了但自己却瞎了眼没看到呢？ 但为什么我看到时，又不见了？ 哈哈，这捉迷藏挺有意思的嘛！ 我要留心了，别再让这东西给溜走了。
高低论
高高在上时，别忘了曾经颓废的时刻。 颓废时，别忘了转机就在角落等待着我们踏出这一步。 高高低低， 低低高高， 不高不低，这全都是人生。 突然累了，睡一觉醒来又是新一天来临了。 这就是好好活着的奥妙，上帝是公平的， 每个人都有相等的时间和机会。 你的一秒和我的一秒是一样的，在乎你我如何运用来把握机会。
这一刻，我在低处黑暗中徘徊， 思索着如何攀爬上去，爬出这黑暗的洞。 攀爬过程难免会失手滑落， 跌回原点。 但只要我搽搽伤口，咬紧牙根捉着洞壁上那长满刺的树藤再往上爬，相信终有一天我会看到洞口外的阳光照在我遍体鳞伤的身体。 伤口是人生经历，不痛就是没经历过挫折。 树藤是亲友，一直默默地扶助你向上爬。 珍惜那树藤，不要在意树藤上的刺对你造成的痛楚，它可是帮助你爬出黑暗深洞的最佳良伴呢！ 很感谢树藤扶助之恩，没有你们，没有我。 朋友，衷心的谢谢你们！
这一刻，我在低处黑暗中徘徊， 思索着如何攀爬上去，爬出这黑暗的洞。 攀爬过程难免会失手滑落， 跌回原点。 但只要我搽搽伤口，咬紧牙根捉着洞壁上那长满刺的树藤再往上爬，相信终有一天我会看到洞口外的阳光照在我遍体鳞伤的身体。 伤口是人生经历，不痛就是没经历过挫折。 树藤是亲友，一直默默地扶助你向上爬。 珍惜那树藤，不要在意树藤上的刺对你造成的痛楚，它可是帮助你爬出黑暗深洞的最佳良伴呢！ 很感谢树藤扶助之恩，没有你们，没有我。 朋友，衷心的谢谢你们！
I gotta feeling
Tonight is a good night...I gotta feeling...tonight will be a good night! Been busy for the past 2 weeks and I was glad that my time was occupied on thinking of mathematical equations rather than the messed up part of my life...
With the fun fizzled out and the feel good factor all but washed up, reality is back. How I wished he was out there tonight with us at the dinner...well...it might take a little while for that dream to come true.
Back at the dirty but cosy room of mine, thinking of ifs and buts...trying hard to disrupt my body clock to finish this article...I'm really at a loss yet again. My only trusted source of communication, words, is failing me...failing me badly...
Why is everything gloomy and dark in my blog? Well, in comes the colour and vigour but out goes the creative best of me...an emo freak? Another important note is that I do not write when I'm genuinely happy as words are irrelevant when you are smiling from your heart. So yeah...if being expressive and emotional is bad then so be it. Its just another nickname...no big deal!
One more thing, I offer my sincere prayers so that he can be healed and come back to us in no time. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday...over and over again...I hope he can stay strong and be happy everyday. Please bless him with strength and courage to overcome his ordeal. He deserves a second chance!
With the fun fizzled out and the feel good factor all but washed up, reality is back. How I wished he was out there tonight with us at the dinner...well...it might take a little while for that dream to come true.
Back at the dirty but cosy room of mine, thinking of ifs and buts...trying hard to disrupt my body clock to finish this article...I'm really at a loss yet again. My only trusted source of communication, words, is failing me...failing me badly...
Why is everything gloomy and dark in my blog? Well, in comes the colour and vigour but out goes the creative best of me...an emo freak? Another important note is that I do not write when I'm genuinely happy as words are irrelevant when you are smiling from your heart. So yeah...if being expressive and emotional is bad then so be it. Its just another nickname...no big deal!
One more thing, I offer my sincere prayers so that he can be healed and come back to us in no time. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday...over and over again...I hope he can stay strong and be happy everyday. Please bless him with strength and courage to overcome his ordeal. He deserves a second chance!
Monday 6 July 2009
Definition of friendship
Friendship is...
not about sharing jokes and laughing like mad dogs together,
not about treating meals and drinks,
not about everything you did with your friend during the happy days.
Frienship is...
about being there on times your friend needs you,
about lending a ear to hear your friend out,
about everything you do for your friend during the dark hours.
I have not been there at the needy times,
I have not lend my ears,
I have not done my best,
I am not a good friend.
not about sharing jokes and laughing like mad dogs together,
not about treating meals and drinks,
not about everything you did with your friend during the happy days.
Frienship is...
about being there on times your friend needs you,
about lending a ear to hear your friend out,
about everything you do for your friend during the dark hours.
I have not been there at the needy times,
I have not lend my ears,
I have not done my best,
I am not a good friend.
I have failed badly as a friend
This useless blogger can only hide behind the virtual world of blogging to atone his mistakes...
I have heard countless advices but none as gut wrenching as the one said by a person. The words though simple and short, bore right through my heart and the fires of guilt engulfed my conscience...simply put I have been selfish. Not wanting to be affected with sadness and the sense of helplessness, I choose the easier way out. I ran away from reality...but reality caught up with me eventually.
Reflecting on my actions, it was total selfishness and bordering being ignorant, thinking that everything will turn out just fine. This is me, always writing and talking but no solid action...how typical me! I have failed badly as a friend. I have dissapointed a friend, a brother but perhaps not so anymore now judging by what I have done wrong. Do I deserve a second chance? I have always doubted myself but now without a doubt I want a second chance. I am flawed but I have done enough as a friend all this while to be deserving of at least another chance of redemption. This is a time to right all wrongs.
To err is human, but to err continuosly after such gut wrenching advice is inhumane. I thank the person for reminding me how much more I've got to learn as a human. Nuff' said, ACTION!
I have heard countless advices but none as gut wrenching as the one said by a person. The words though simple and short, bore right through my heart and the fires of guilt engulfed my conscience...simply put I have been selfish. Not wanting to be affected with sadness and the sense of helplessness, I choose the easier way out. I ran away from reality...but reality caught up with me eventually.
Reflecting on my actions, it was total selfishness and bordering being ignorant, thinking that everything will turn out just fine. This is me, always writing and talking but no solid action...how typical me! I have failed badly as a friend. I have dissapointed a friend, a brother but perhaps not so anymore now judging by what I have done wrong. Do I deserve a second chance? I have always doubted myself but now without a doubt I want a second chance. I am flawed but I have done enough as a friend all this while to be deserving of at least another chance of redemption. This is a time to right all wrongs.
To err is human, but to err continuosly after such gut wrenching advice is inhumane. I thank the person for reminding me how much more I've got to learn as a human. Nuff' said, ACTION!
Friday 12 June 2009
Are mere words enough?
What are you gonna say when you are asked to comment about a friend you regard highly and respect deeply? Are mere words enough to cover the extreme guilt you feel when you can't even help him during his darkest moment. Words, no matter how they are filled with grandeur and poetry can't cover the fact that I didn't do my best to help him during his hardship. What else can I do apart from writing a comment for him and sounding upbeat during conversations with him? To put it simply in mere insignificant words it will go on like this...Jonathan is my pillar of strength during hardship and a figure to look up to on sunny days. An elder brother to have where you can joke, tease, share secrets and feel comfortable with his presence. Thanks for the memories...
Tuesday 26 May 2009
明年今日
明年是个未知数，但我可能毕业了。 但今日我仍然有那熟悉的感觉...寂寞感。 明年今日，我希望不再有这种感觉了，这苦涩的感觉，快离我远去吧！ 这个寂寞感不是说找到另一半就解决了，这不是单身的寂寞而是针对这世上的一切。 这不是自杀的先兆，而是对人性的失望。 人心计太深，单纯的人几乎绝种了...韩国卢武铉的自杀是个例子。 某人可以在这个时刻人人爱戴，但瞬眼间也可让人人都恨之入骨。 人心难测...谁明白我心中的矛盾？ 好和坏，真的是可以被世俗的道德观评价吗？ 无论你做了千百件好事，但只要做了一件坏事你就一定是坏人吗？ 不是某某教宗的信徒就一定下地狱了吗？ 道德是圣人用来约束庸人的道具...我是庸人但我不要被道德约束。 明年今日，我不要做个迂腐的凡夫俗子...
A leaf on the sea
I am a leaf,
that sails aimlessly,
with no purpose in mind.
I am a leaf,
under the mercy of the sea,
for the sea charts my path.
I am a leaf,
still on the look out,
for that other same leaf.
I am a leaf,
a leaf on the sea,
the sea of uncertanties.
I am a leaf,
I am a leaf,
I am a leaf on the sea...
that sails aimlessly,
with no purpose in mind.
I am a leaf,
under the mercy of the sea,
for the sea charts my path.
I am a leaf,
still on the look out,
for that other same leaf.
I am a leaf,
a leaf on the sea,
the sea of uncertanties.
I am a leaf,
I am a leaf,
I am a leaf on the sea...
原来只能做朋友...
女人都有一个共同的烦恼...如何令只当成普通朋友一般来看待的男性不喜欢自己。 一男一女相处久了通常都会有感情，尤其对男性来说是个难题。 女人一方面来不愿失去这个男性朋友，另一方面也深感不胜其烦。 很多时候，男士们都会把异性的友善当成是鼓励一直到后来才发现原来只能做朋友...
依然是朋友可能是接下来的发展，但事实上各自的心中都有了隔膜或疤痕。 男和女能够只做普通朋友吗？ 很多人都说可以...因为对方的确很不吸引你，也许对方已有心上人，或者自己心有所属。 其实，事实上证明是可以的...不然见到每个女性朋友都喜欢那还得了，岂不闹得天翻地覆！
谁能够划船不用桨
谁能够扬帆没有风向
谁能够离开好朋友
没有感伤
我可以划船不用桨
我可以扬帆没有风向
但是朋友啊
当你离我远去
我却不能不感伤
问世间，情为何物？ 没有爱情，还有友情嘛...记得了噢！(这句话是我自己说给我自己听的)
依然是朋友可能是接下来的发展，但事实上各自的心中都有了隔膜或疤痕。 男和女能够只做普通朋友吗？ 很多人都说可以...因为对方的确很不吸引你，也许对方已有心上人，或者自己心有所属。 其实，事实上证明是可以的...不然见到每个女性朋友都喜欢那还得了，岂不闹得天翻地覆！
谁能够划船不用桨
谁能够扬帆没有风向
谁能够离开好朋友
没有感伤
我可以划船不用桨
我可以扬帆没有风向
但是朋友啊
当你离我远去
我却不能不感伤
问世间，情为何物？ 没有爱情，还有友情嘛...记得了噢！(这句话是我自己说给我自己听的)
Saturday 16 May 2009
Hamburg, the place I want to live in...
Hamburg, the place where hamburgers live. Yeah, Hamburger is the term used to described the folks living in hamburg. Based in Ohlsdorf for more than a week, I managed to see the good and bad of Hamburg.
The good is of course the frequency of the public transport, the busy night life, and the scenaries. The bad is of course the high cost of living which comes along with living in a metropolis. I really missed staying in a big city where the number of people walking on the street is uncountable and being sardined in the underground train(U-Bahn) is a bliss because it proves that I am not living in a secluded place. How I miss the traffic jams in Kuala Lumpur because that means I have a car to drive! We complain when we possess things that irritates us but start to miss those things when they are not around...such irony!
From Jungfernstieg onwards we have countless shopping outlets and the Alster lake is really a sight to behold. The pubs scattered in the city is also a very big plus point to hamburg. The sound of cars and trains passing by in the morning is really refreshing after years of waking up to birds chirping...Hamburg has reminded me what city life is.
Civilization is again alive in me! All Hail the Reborn of the City Boy!
The good is of course the frequency of the public transport, the busy night life, and the scenaries. The bad is of course the high cost of living which comes along with living in a metropolis. I really missed staying in a big city where the number of people walking on the street is uncountable and being sardined in the underground train(U-Bahn) is a bliss because it proves that I am not living in a secluded place. How I miss the traffic jams in Kuala Lumpur because that means I have a car to drive! We complain when we possess things that irritates us but start to miss those things when they are not around...such irony!
From Jungfernstieg onwards we have countless shopping outlets and the Alster lake is really a sight to behold. The pubs scattered in the city is also a very big plus point to hamburg. The sound of cars and trains passing by in the morning is really refreshing after years of waking up to birds chirping...Hamburg has reminded me what city life is.
Civilization is again alive in me! All Hail the Reborn of the City Boy!
Sunday 3 May 2009
aging too fast, getting smart too late
In dedication to the upcoming mother's and father's day,
To my dearest ma and pa,
The moment I read this article, I can't stop thinking about you two. Both dad and mum have been working for almost 30 odd years just for the sake of the children. Every season's festivals bore witness to their love towards us the children. Be it bad times or good times, the 4 of us always get to wear new clothes and receive hefty sums as angpaus whereas dad and mum are still wearing their old worn out clothes. They are both in their 50's now and age is really catching up on them...
I really hope that when my parents read the following, they will start to show some appreciation to themselves as well. Humans age very fast but smarten up way too late. It is no doubt that every parent loves their children to the extent of sacrifizing their own needs. They have the motto that after retirement its their time to rest, thus wasting their entire youth on work...earning money for their childrens' future. I will be doing that as well, there is absolutely no doubt about it but there is a need to love your ownself as well. When you love yourself, you won't let yourself get sick in the sense that you are unable to care for your children.
Whenever I suggest to my dad that he should take a breather and tour around the world while he is still in fit condition, his reply would be: "papa has got no money to afford that because I have got alot of bills to settle and your brother's tuition fees is due..." I would stop at that point because I understand his burden and his vision of providing us with shelter even without his presence in the future. Another standard reply would be that he has everything in plan after retirement.
We always tend to gamble on the future and sacrifizing the present. The saying that "the past is history, the future is a mystery, today is a gift thus we call it present" is not unheard of but how many really put it in practice? I really wish that daddy and mummy can slow down and enjoy life just a little bit. Time is merciless, so please be smart and treat yourself a wee bit better rather than putting all hopes on the future while neglecting the gift of everyday...the present.
Representing wen hao, wen xin and ling yuan,
With love,
wen soon
P.S. Everyday is our father and mother's day! So dad and mum, get smart!
To my dearest ma and pa,
The moment I read this article, I can't stop thinking about you two. Both dad and mum have been working for almost 30 odd years just for the sake of the children. Every season's festivals bore witness to their love towards us the children. Be it bad times or good times, the 4 of us always get to wear new clothes and receive hefty sums as angpaus whereas dad and mum are still wearing their old worn out clothes. They are both in their 50's now and age is really catching up on them...
I really hope that when my parents read the following, they will start to show some appreciation to themselves as well. Humans age very fast but smarten up way too late. It is no doubt that every parent loves their children to the extent of sacrifizing their own needs. They have the motto that after retirement its their time to rest, thus wasting their entire youth on work...earning money for their childrens' future. I will be doing that as well, there is absolutely no doubt about it but there is a need to love your ownself as well. When you love yourself, you won't let yourself get sick in the sense that you are unable to care for your children.
Whenever I suggest to my dad that he should take a breather and tour around the world while he is still in fit condition, his reply would be: "papa has got no money to afford that because I have got alot of bills to settle and your brother's tuition fees is due..." I would stop at that point because I understand his burden and his vision of providing us with shelter even without his presence in the future. Another standard reply would be that he has everything in plan after retirement.
We always tend to gamble on the future and sacrifizing the present. The saying that "the past is history, the future is a mystery, today is a gift thus we call it present" is not unheard of but how many really put it in practice? I really wish that daddy and mummy can slow down and enjoy life just a little bit. Time is merciless, so please be smart and treat yourself a wee bit better rather than putting all hopes on the future while neglecting the gift of everyday...the present.
Representing wen hao, wen xin and ling yuan,
With love,
wen soon
P.S. Everyday is our father and mother's day! So dad and mum, get smart!
Tuesday 28 April 2009
人依在，心已非。
曾经何时，有一对眼神柔柔的望着我，令我沉醉不已。 她的眼神很柔很诚恳，我望着她可以呆呆不出声。 她虽被我望得不好意思，但她那闪烁的眼睛却丝毫不减风韵。 虽然注定无缘，但从此我再也找不回这个眼神了...我没什么好，只有对她的一切记性好。 你们觉得我肉麻，说话不认真，烂gag一箩箩。 我想说我其实对人对事都抱着一份赤子的真诚，宁愿吃亏的是我也末叫他人受苦。 最近顶撞的人也多，但非出自真心，只为保护自己被伤害过的心灵。 我或许感触良多但真心的话不能不说，她的眼神我这一世都忘不了。 她可能不记得我这个曾经在她身边出现过的小角色。 数年了...人依在，心已非。 人生如此，多说无济于事。 除了她望着我那短短数秒的眼神，一切我都放下了...
Monday 27 April 2009
南瓜公主 - 邂逅
小时听过无数的童话故事，睡美人和白雪公主都令人憧憬...童话一定要有美好结局吗？
问世间，情为何物？南瓜公主会答情为咖啡...这故事在一个遥远的国度开始，或许你在睡梦中能够见到那若隐若现的小南瓜王国。 小南瓜王国是个盛产南瓜的小国，故以南瓜为名。 小南瓜国出产的南瓜甜蜜多汁，远近驰名。 夏天暑热时人人皆吃南瓜冰淇淋，喝南瓜汁解暑。 小南瓜国的国王矮冬瓜是名副其实的矮冬瓜，王后小蜜瓜在没穿高跟鞋的时候都高矮冬瓜国王一个头有余。 矮冬瓜与小蜜瓜的相遇直到相爱到最后以身相许都是经典的童话故事，让人歌颂。
话说矮冬瓜年轻时一次贪玩逃离了王宫到世外闯荡， 误打误撞遇到了正在花园捉蝴蝶的小蜜瓜...那一次的邂逅，在矮冬瓜的心中留下了深刻的烙印。 小蜜瓜虽然是个小美人儿，但却天生眼盲。 矮冬瓜正在好奇为什么她看不见东西却可以捉蝴蝶呢，但随风飘来的香味把答案告诉了他。 没错，小蜜瓜是凭嗅觉来捕捉蝴蝶的，那些蝴蝶也是她身边的女仆悉心搽上香粉的。 矮冬瓜看到此景时不免呆了好久，直到小蜜瓜把蝴蝶网撒在他身上时才醒觉。 小蜜瓜上前摸索的时候不小心被途中石头绊了一跤，身子往矮冬瓜身上倒去。 这一跌发生在两个常人身上，多半只会不小心嘴亲嘴。 但那矮冬瓜却比常人矮一截，他的头不偏不倚被小蜜瓜的胸脯压着了...小蜜瓜又羞又怒，一巴掌打了下去，矮冬瓜登时流鼻血...是被打伤还是被过度刺激，相信只有矮冬瓜自己知道了。 身边的丫环还合力把矮冬瓜捉了回去好让蜜瓜国王定夺。 蜜瓜国王得知爱女被轻薄大怒之下把矮冬瓜的右脚锁上了个很重的铁球，发配给小蜜瓜为奴婢任劳任怨。 初始小蜜瓜恼恨他所以对他百般玩弄，一时把他当木马来骑，一时又叫他搽上香粉成为她捕捉的猎物。 矮冬瓜虽吃苦连连，但每当看见小蜜瓜那虽盲了但仍然爱笑的眼睛，心中都会暖呼呼的...
不知不觉被小蜜瓜戏弄的日子也有数月了，那日久生情的感觉却一天比一天强。 小蜜瓜虽眼睛瞎了，但心中却非常明白她身边那小伙子对她的心意，但她早已心系小时青梅竹马西瓜王子。 奈何她对自己本身见不到东西耿耿于怀，私下决定了此生独守空闺，不嫁何人。 因此矮冬瓜对她越好，她却更冷漠，希望矮冬瓜能够死心。 但老天爷怜悯一对有缘的牛郎织女，给了矮冬瓜一个良好机会...一天小蜜瓜和矮冬瓜在花园中一个扑蝶一个扮蝶被扑，正玩得入神时，蜜瓜国王带着西瓜王子来找小蜜瓜谈他俩婚姻大事。 这西瓜王子不算俊俏，但比起矮冬瓜当然有过之而不及，最明显的是西瓜王子高大威猛，是个六尺男子汉。 起初西瓜王子对小蜜瓜的美色吸引住了，一时片刻呆呆出神一语不发。 但当他发现小蜜瓜的眼睛瞎了的时候，立刻面露歧视之相还出语讽刺，说她盲女当佩跛脚侠就连当他的婢女也不配。 矮冬瓜听后再也按捺不住说道:"盲了又怎样？她虽眼盲了但不如你心盲，你不能这样践踏她!" 说道此处矮冬瓜不免心如刀割哽咽着说：“你们俩明明是大漠上的一对白雕，我只是柳枝底下的一只小燕儿罢啦。我虽陪她一天多欢喜一天，但她始终对我无情。” 西瓜王子不以为然说道：“你凭什么在这说三道四，小蜜瓜你喜欢拿去吧！我不稀罕！” 在一旁沉默良久的小蜜瓜此时大为感动，与矮冬瓜短短数月经历过的种种好像潮水般冲入脑海，矮冬瓜平日对她所做的一切一切历历在目。 她含着泪说到：“矮冬瓜，你对我真好，但西瓜王子说得没错，我确实是眼睛瞎了，你不需要为我说话。” 矮冬瓜却柔情说到：“你看不见不是罪，对我来说你那爱笑的眼睛是这世上最美的眼睛无人能取代，西瓜王子不会珍惜，我会珍惜！ 你给我机会去爱护你，当你黑暗中那守护天使好吗？” 那一刻时间好象停留了许久，两人心灵相通，已经不在乎天长地久了，只在乎那一刻的曾经拥有。 矮冬瓜与小蜜瓜的故事从那一刻如童话般开始了...他们俩未来的女儿南瓜公主的故事却还未开始...
南瓜公主又会有如父母童话似的爱情吗？她的遭遇又会如何呢...
问世间，情为何物？南瓜公主会答情为咖啡...这故事在一个遥远的国度开始，或许你在睡梦中能够见到那若隐若现的小南瓜王国。 小南瓜王国是个盛产南瓜的小国，故以南瓜为名。 小南瓜国出产的南瓜甜蜜多汁，远近驰名。 夏天暑热时人人皆吃南瓜冰淇淋，喝南瓜汁解暑。 小南瓜国的国王矮冬瓜是名副其实的矮冬瓜，王后小蜜瓜在没穿高跟鞋的时候都高矮冬瓜国王一个头有余。 矮冬瓜与小蜜瓜的相遇直到相爱到最后以身相许都是经典的童话故事，让人歌颂。
话说矮冬瓜年轻时一次贪玩逃离了王宫到世外闯荡， 误打误撞遇到了正在花园捉蝴蝶的小蜜瓜...那一次的邂逅，在矮冬瓜的心中留下了深刻的烙印。 小蜜瓜虽然是个小美人儿，但却天生眼盲。 矮冬瓜正在好奇为什么她看不见东西却可以捉蝴蝶呢，但随风飘来的香味把答案告诉了他。 没错，小蜜瓜是凭嗅觉来捕捉蝴蝶的，那些蝴蝶也是她身边的女仆悉心搽上香粉的。 矮冬瓜看到此景时不免呆了好久，直到小蜜瓜把蝴蝶网撒在他身上时才醒觉。 小蜜瓜上前摸索的时候不小心被途中石头绊了一跤，身子往矮冬瓜身上倒去。 这一跌发生在两个常人身上，多半只会不小心嘴亲嘴。 但那矮冬瓜却比常人矮一截，他的头不偏不倚被小蜜瓜的胸脯压着了...小蜜瓜又羞又怒，一巴掌打了下去，矮冬瓜登时流鼻血...是被打伤还是被过度刺激，相信只有矮冬瓜自己知道了。 身边的丫环还合力把矮冬瓜捉了回去好让蜜瓜国王定夺。 蜜瓜国王得知爱女被轻薄大怒之下把矮冬瓜的右脚锁上了个很重的铁球，发配给小蜜瓜为奴婢任劳任怨。 初始小蜜瓜恼恨他所以对他百般玩弄，一时把他当木马来骑，一时又叫他搽上香粉成为她捕捉的猎物。 矮冬瓜虽吃苦连连，但每当看见小蜜瓜那虽盲了但仍然爱笑的眼睛，心中都会暖呼呼的...
不知不觉被小蜜瓜戏弄的日子也有数月了，那日久生情的感觉却一天比一天强。 小蜜瓜虽眼睛瞎了，但心中却非常明白她身边那小伙子对她的心意，但她早已心系小时青梅竹马西瓜王子。 奈何她对自己本身见不到东西耿耿于怀，私下决定了此生独守空闺，不嫁何人。 因此矮冬瓜对她越好，她却更冷漠，希望矮冬瓜能够死心。 但老天爷怜悯一对有缘的牛郎织女，给了矮冬瓜一个良好机会...一天小蜜瓜和矮冬瓜在花园中一个扑蝶一个扮蝶被扑，正玩得入神时，蜜瓜国王带着西瓜王子来找小蜜瓜谈他俩婚姻大事。 这西瓜王子不算俊俏，但比起矮冬瓜当然有过之而不及，最明显的是西瓜王子高大威猛，是个六尺男子汉。 起初西瓜王子对小蜜瓜的美色吸引住了，一时片刻呆呆出神一语不发。 但当他发现小蜜瓜的眼睛瞎了的时候，立刻面露歧视之相还出语讽刺，说她盲女当佩跛脚侠就连当他的婢女也不配。 矮冬瓜听后再也按捺不住说道:"盲了又怎样？她虽眼盲了但不如你心盲，你不能这样践踏她!" 说道此处矮冬瓜不免心如刀割哽咽着说：“你们俩明明是大漠上的一对白雕，我只是柳枝底下的一只小燕儿罢啦。我虽陪她一天多欢喜一天，但她始终对我无情。” 西瓜王子不以为然说道：“你凭什么在这说三道四，小蜜瓜你喜欢拿去吧！我不稀罕！” 在一旁沉默良久的小蜜瓜此时大为感动，与矮冬瓜短短数月经历过的种种好像潮水般冲入脑海，矮冬瓜平日对她所做的一切一切历历在目。 她含着泪说到：“矮冬瓜，你对我真好，但西瓜王子说得没错，我确实是眼睛瞎了，你不需要为我说话。” 矮冬瓜却柔情说到：“你看不见不是罪，对我来说你那爱笑的眼睛是这世上最美的眼睛无人能取代，西瓜王子不会珍惜，我会珍惜！ 你给我机会去爱护你，当你黑暗中那守护天使好吗？” 那一刻时间好象停留了许久，两人心灵相通，已经不在乎天长地久了，只在乎那一刻的曾经拥有。 矮冬瓜与小蜜瓜的故事从那一刻如童话般开始了...他们俩未来的女儿南瓜公主的故事却还未开始...
南瓜公主又会有如父母童话似的爱情吗？她的遭遇又会如何呢...
Sunday 26 April 2009
情歌的儿子...小情歌
这是一首简单的小情歌
唱著人们心肠的曲折
我想我很快乐 当有你的温热
脚边的空气转了
这是一首简单的小情歌
唱著我们心头的白鸽
我想我很适合 当一个歌颂者
青春在风中飘著
你知道 就算大雨让这座城市颠倒
我会给你怀抱
受不了 看见你背影来到
写下我 度秒如年难挨的离骚
就算整个世界被寂寞绑票
我也不会奔跑
逃不了 最后谁也都苍老
写下我 时间和琴声交错的城堡
唱著人们心肠的曲折
我想我很快乐 当有你的温热
脚边的空气转了
这是一首简单的小情歌
唱著我们心头的白鸽
我想我很适合 当一个歌颂者
青春在风中飘著
你知道 就算大雨让这座城市颠倒
我会给你怀抱
受不了 看见你背影来到
写下我 度秒如年难挨的离骚
就算整个世界被寂寞绑票
我也不会奔跑
逃不了 最后谁也都苍老
写下我 时间和琴声交错的城堡
豆丁传
话说从前有一群豆丁。 豆丁们天真无邪很是逗人喜爱。 豆丁们整天嘻嘻哈哈，不分昼夜的玩耍，疲倦这两个字是不在他们字典中存在的。 有一天，远方的老饼们派了一张请柬来邀请他们去参加一个烧烤会。 这个请柬真把他们难倒了，一方面他们很想留在家继续他们豆丁的生活，实在不想参加这莫名其妙的烧烤会。 于是便用了个天真的理由，我们想在家做豆丁，不愿去跟你们这班老饼们为伍。 最后，老饼们在没有豆丁们的参加下仍然把烧烤会搞好了...当天的天气虽没有想象中的好，但是想起留在家的豆丁们，心中的太阳慢慢照亮了心房...可谓心花怒放。 那天烧烤会的主菜当然是烧豆丁...豆丁变焦豆， 焦豆变臭豆， 臭豆变烂豆...不再令人喜爱了。 这故事的道德是教训大家不要敷衍老饼们，因为老饼喜欢倚老卖老，而且小气得很...哈哈。
此故事纯属虚构，任何雷同的内容纯属巧合，请不要对号入座，成为万人景仰的perasan大王...
此故事纯属虚构，任何雷同的内容纯属巧合，请不要对号入座，成为万人景仰的perasan大王...
Saturday 18 April 2009
DJ Darren's music jukebox
The All American Rejects: it ends tonight, move along, gives you hell, top of the world
Taylor Swift: love Story, teardrops on my guitar, you belong to me
Lady Gaga: just dance, poker face
Adam Lambert: track of my tears, mad world
from your-DJ-wannabe-Darren.
Taylor Swift: love Story, teardrops on my guitar, you belong to me
Lady Gaga: just dance, poker face
Adam Lambert: track of my tears, mad world
from your-DJ-wannabe-Darren.
心目中的女神
不在乎天使的面孔，魔鬼的身材...只在乎她落落大方的谈吐举止，并带有一丝楚楚可怜令人疼惜与想保护她的样子。不妒嫉，不挑剔和不无理取闹更是男人梦寐以求的对象。 哈哈先来一个虚构女神...把siew lee的天真活泼， siew tee的单纯， hui yin的淘气， jin xuan的斯文大方， shu wen的高雅， chooi yun的智慧以及第一个暗恋对象慧宁的样貌与身材全部加起来...不得了! 我想象看见这个合成版女神时，心都会溶去...每每被人问起为什么还是单身，我都无言以对...为什么？我不挑剔但我也不勇敢表达...我只会暗恋而且在没有适当的鼓励并不会主动出击。（典型的处女座男孩）
最后想想，妈咪还是我心目中的女神。 选美轮不到她，诺贝尔奖也没她份，但她会是这世上最爱我，最疼我，最爱拉我耳朵的女人。 她煮的菜也会是最棒的。 任何一个女人能有她十分一都会是我心目中的女神...哈哈我不算太贪吧！
最后想想，妈咪还是我心目中的女神。 选美轮不到她，诺贝尔奖也没她份，但她会是这世上最爱我，最疼我，最爱拉我耳朵的女人。 她煮的菜也会是最棒的。 任何一个女人能有她十分一都会是我心目中的女神...哈哈我不算太贪吧！
pride
A common flaw among men is that they have way too much pride that they cant put it down and admit their mistakes. Admitting your mistakes is not an act of weakness rather it shows that you are willing to accept your flaws and improve on it. I have seen couples arguing for no reason just because the male counterpart let his pride overcome his reasoning. Most men like to take the high ground and claim supremacy. Imagine a world where pride is only used in the correct way, i.e. you pride yourself as an honest person, a true gentlemen and most important as a filial son or loyal husband. REMEMBER I'm no Moral Guardian or whatever Holy Sage...just wondering if the world will be a better place to live if pride is used in the correct way?
I used to hear an argument that a ship can't have 2 captains because the ship won't move. Guess what, the next point is that the female counterpart should follow so that the male can carry on with his natural job of leading. This is pride in play...men pride themselves as leaders and women as their followers. If we put pride aside and let the more capable one regardless of gender to lead, I dare say more than half of the guys will disagree with me. Is it pure hormonal reasons or historical burden that the guys must have pride in abundance? You answer me...
I used to hear an argument that a ship can't have 2 captains because the ship won't move. Guess what, the next point is that the female counterpart should follow so that the male can carry on with his natural job of leading. This is pride in play...men pride themselves as leaders and women as their followers. If we put pride aside and let the more capable one regardless of gender to lead, I dare say more than half of the guys will disagree with me. Is it pure hormonal reasons or historical burden that the guys must have pride in abundance? You answer me...
Sunday 29 March 2009
Monday 23 March 2009
Tuesday 10 March 2009
Guilt...
I have never felt such guilt in my life before...I was not helping out as much as I could when a friend was in need. While a friend is admitted to a hospital...what was I doing? I was bloody watching a drama! Such a friend I am...I am really ashamed of myself. Sorry jon...I have taken our friendship for granted...I pray for your swift recovery!
Friday 20 February 2009
一个人
人，在寂静时，想的东西也特别多...看着街上的情侣出双入对，自己孤单的影子则走在那爱情洋溢的街道上，此时正巧听着寂寞的季节...不好意思，我不是在赚人热泪，我自问没那个本事。 身边的朋友会说别想太多，说这一切是你自己胡思乱想而已。 没错，我可以不要去想，一年只有365天而已，一定会有忙碌的日子吧！ 其实，一个人也有一个人的快乐，他不必去关心另一个，呵护她，疼爱她，甚至在寒冷的冬天中抱着她给她温暖。 一个人的生活也蛮自在的，不会有人去烦他，骂他，向他抱怨或撒娇。 相信星座的朋友，处女座的男生是最木头最不浪漫的人也是最不受异性青眯的一类。 不必瞎猜了，写得那么明显了，我说我不是处女座谁会信呢？ 读到此处，或许你会觉得很荒唐而且还会开始怀疑自己所认识的文顺是那么悲观的吗？
我那整天嬉皮笑脸，口水多过茶，废话连篇，几乎从没生气过的样子个个都见过了。 那闹剧散了，人散了和沉静下来后的我，可不是人人都见过...那寂寞的，空虚的灵魂。 朋友，不在乎一起时有聊不完的话题，而是在一起时不说话不会尴尬。 这些朋友我有，因为我是个交心的人。 可惜我交出的心不是全部，保留了那不甘寂寞和没有安全感的部份。 一个人啊，静下来后的思路可以多偏激，以上的一切可以看出来。 十年后看回此文章，可以看看我到底多无聊，多无知...
---处女座的男生---
我那整天嬉皮笑脸，口水多过茶，废话连篇，几乎从没生气过的样子个个都见过了。 那闹剧散了，人散了和沉静下来后的我，可不是人人都见过...那寂寞的，空虚的灵魂。 朋友，不在乎一起时有聊不完的话题，而是在一起时不说话不会尴尬。 这些朋友我有，因为我是个交心的人。 可惜我交出的心不是全部，保留了那不甘寂寞和没有安全感的部份。 一个人啊，静下来后的思路可以多偏激，以上的一切可以看出来。 十年后看回此文章，可以看看我到底多无聊，多无知...
---处女座的男生---
Monday 16 February 2009
Whoever thinks anime is childish watch gundam 00!
Minus the swashbuckling gundams and seemingly perfect characters,(the female characters are drawn drop dead gorgeous, as expected from japanese anime) we have a rather solid plot served up. However far fetched or bizarre the ideas in gundam series are, we cant simply ignore the fact that one day the earth will run out of resources thus triggering war for energy and human beings will have progessed so far that they possess god-like abilities.
While we wont have gundam meisters to save mankind or change the world, we may as well sit back and enjoy the anime before the world ends in god-knows-when. Thumbs up to the scriptwriter behind the series... coz I am willing to be called childish just to watch Gundam 00!
signing off,
your-proud-to-be-mecha-nerd-blogger.
While we wont have gundam meisters to save mankind or change the world, we may as well sit back and enjoy the anime before the world ends in god-knows-when. Thumbs up to the scriptwriter behind the series... coz I am willing to be called childish just to watch Gundam 00!
signing off,
your-proud-to-be-mecha-nerd-blogger.
Thursday 5 February 2009
I admit my mistake...
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I said before I believe that thousand words is better than a picture...how wrong I am...I cant find words to describe a absolute belle. So, after exam...all the pics will come...1st up...the pictures of the beauty in my eyes rank...with leah dizon and jun natsukawa guess appearing. Wait for it u pervs! Words will not ever be sufficient to describe a girl that strucks a chord to your heart and soul.
Another-so-mesmerized-by-leah-dizon-guy-writing-nonsense
新年=读书
当人人都在赏烟花赏到眼花，吃肉干吃到口干， 收红包受到手软的时候...请记得还有一班离乡背井的游子还在异国磨练着。如果烟花看闷了，就看看那多年没见的亲人，肉干吃腻了，就把它寄给在外的家人，红包嫌多也把它寄给游子。 好啦，抱怨够了，继续读书！明天考试了，自求多福把，没人可怜你的啦...
Another CNY celebrated away from home
Dear whoever who minds reading my blog
Things may look rosy on the pictures in facebook but the truth is its another edition of cny not spent with family...u may think it sucks if u miss out the good food and angpaus...the suckiest of all is not here yet...EXAMS DURING CNY. Well guys and gals, happy chinese new year and have a prosperous niu year without me as some deem me as being properous enough(growing side ways). I wont argue with those who believe what they saw on facebook...it just motivates me further on my gym sessions.
Your long-hibernated-due-to-exam-lazy-blogger,
Darren
Things may look rosy on the pictures in facebook but the truth is its another edition of cny not spent with family...u may think it sucks if u miss out the good food and angpaus...the suckiest of all is not here yet...EXAMS DURING CNY. Well guys and gals, happy chinese new year and have a prosperous niu year without me as some deem me as being properous enough(growing side ways). I wont argue with those who believe what they saw on facebook...it just motivates me further on my gym sessions.
Your long-hibernated-due-to-exam-lazy-blogger,
Darren
Monday 19 January 2009
Bye Bye Bush
The most unpopular ever President of USA is handing over the reigns today...he left behind trails of destructions in Iraq and Afghanistan. He is so unpopular that it is said anybody coming in can do a better job than him. To his credit, he taught us a great deal in terms of what not to do. However big the mistakes he made, he did the rest of us a favour by showing us the devastating effects of war and economy mismanagement. We will however remember his classical gags:
“You can fool some people all the time, and those are the ones you want to concentrate on.”
“People sometimes have to correct my English. I knew I had a problem when Arnold Schwarzenegger started doing it.”
“All I can report is it was a size ten.”
After Iraqi reporter Muntadar al-Zeidi hurled a pair of shoes at him during a press briefing.
To Mr Bush: Thanks for your war and economic lessons and happy retirement!
“You can fool some people all the time, and those are the ones you want to concentrate on.”
“People sometimes have to correct my English. I knew I had a problem when Arnold Schwarzenegger started doing it.”
“All I can report is it was a size ten.”
After Iraqi reporter Muntadar al-Zeidi hurled a pair of shoes at him during a press briefing.
To Mr Bush: Thanks for your war and economic lessons and happy retirement!
Friday 9 January 2009
Britain's Got Darren(Talent)
I am so british-biased that I might get stick from somebody some day! I like everything good great britain has got to offer...
I prefer London over other european cities, nothing compares to london in europe. Stepping onto british soil from germany gives me a sense of tranquility and belonging.(the feeling of being in a second home)
When it comes to football, no price for guessing correctly that I am a man utd and england fan. Leona Lewis, take that and many more are examples of fine british pop music. I am so in love with english the language that I would rather spend another 10 years perfecting it than learning the twisted french, spanish, italian and german. The british accent...its almost music to my ears but I will keep my malaysian accent for now.
No matter how many bad things people might say about UK, it will always be a long lasting love affair for me.(literally meaning I am in love with the country)
I prefer London over other european cities, nothing compares to london in europe. Stepping onto british soil from germany gives me a sense of tranquility and belonging.(the feeling of being in a second home)
When it comes to football, no price for guessing correctly that I am a man utd and england fan. Leona Lewis, take that and many more are examples of fine british pop music. I am so in love with english the language that I would rather spend another 10 years perfecting it than learning the twisted french, spanish, italian and german. The british accent...its almost music to my ears but I will keep my malaysian accent for now.
No matter how many bad things people might say about UK, it will always be a long lasting love affair for me.(literally meaning I am in love with the country)
Run
I must be so outdated to only hear this version from Leona Lewis.(originally from Snow Patrol) Opinions will differ on whether who sings it better...but what a voice!!! How often we come across a true diva blessed with both looks and the vocal prowess. I am now a super leona fan(to be honest I like everything british). Go Leona, show the doubters some raw talent!
Leona Lewis - Run - Leona Lewis
Leona Lewis - Run - Leona Lewis
Sunday 4 January 2009
2008.doc
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It has not been a good 2008 for me but I would not say its totally woeful.
The bad:
1. Sucky results plus falling grades.
2. Hugely demotivated by the lousy weather and people in germany.
3. Rejected by a girl.
4. Gained alot of weight.
5. Has resorted to hard drinking to ease depression.
The good:
1. Realised that I have plenty good friends around when I need them.
2. Realised that I am actually happier to be a giver than a taker.
3. Realised that germany is so beautiful when I look at it closer.
4. Realised that I do have an ammbition to fulfill(and a world to conquer).
5. Realised that I must continue to be myself.
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It has not been a good 2008 for me but I would not say its totally woeful.
The bad:
1. Sucky results plus falling grades.
2. Hugely demotivated by the lousy weather and people in germany.
3. Rejected by a girl.
4. Gained alot of weight.
5. Has resorted to hard drinking to ease depression.
The good:
1. Realised that I have plenty good friends around when I need them.
2. Realised that I am actually happier to be a giver than a taker.
3. Realised that germany is so beautiful when I look at it closer.
4. Realised that I do have an ammbition to fulfill(and a world to conquer).
5. Realised that I must continue to be myself.
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New Year Resolution
With just a blink of an eye 2008 is behind me and 2009 is ahead of me. Do I let the past burden me or should I keep looking forward? I would say I would not forget the past but I will keep moving forward with optimism. I have said a dozen times that it doesn't make a difference whether you want to lead your life happily or full with sorrow. Life just keeps going on regardless of your emotions. Instead of wallowing in sadness or self pity, lets just live life to the max happily...c'est la vie.
I figure this piece of questionaire would lighten things up abit.
1. Name the five wealthiest people in the world.
2. Name the last five Heisman trophy winners.
3. Name the last five winners of the Miss America pageant.
4. Name ten people who have won the Nobel or Pulitzer Prize.
5. Name the last half dozen Academy Award winners for best actor and
actress.
6. Name the last decade's worth of World Series winners.
How did you do?
The point is, none of us remember the headliners of yesterday.
These are no second-rate achievers.
They are the best in their fields.
But the applause dies.
Awards tarnish.
Achievements are forgotten.
Accolades and certificates are buried with their owners.
Here's another quiz. See how you do on this one:
1. List a few teachers who aided your journey through school.
2. Name three friends who have helped you through a difficult time.
3. Name five people who have taught you something worthwhile.
4. Think of a few people who have made you feel appreciated and special!!
5. Think of five people you enjoy spending time with.
Easier?
The lesson:
The people who make a difference in your life are not the ones with
the most credentials..
the most money... or the most awards.
They simply are the ones who care the most.
- Charlie Schulz Philosophy -
Hence my new year resolution...to cherish those who cares about me the most
I figure this piece of questionaire would lighten things up abit.
1. Name the five wealthiest people in the world.
2. Name the last five Heisman trophy winners.
3. Name the last five winners of the Miss America pageant.
4. Name ten people who have won the Nobel or Pulitzer Prize.
5. Name the last half dozen Academy Award winners for best actor and
actress.
6. Name the last decade's worth of World Series winners.
How did you do?
The point is, none of us remember the headliners of yesterday.
These are no second-rate achievers.
They are the best in their fields.
But the applause dies.
Awards tarnish.
Achievements are forgotten.
Accolades and certificates are buried with their owners.
Here's another quiz. See how you do on this one:
1. List a few teachers who aided your journey through school.
2. Name three friends who have helped you through a difficult time.
3. Name five people who have taught you something worthwhile.
4. Think of a few people who have made you feel appreciated and special!!
5. Think of five people you enjoy spending time with.
Easier?
The lesson:
The people who make a difference in your life are not the ones with
the most credentials..
the most money... or the most awards.
They simply are the ones who care the most.
- Charlie Schulz Philosophy -
Hence my new year resolution...to cherish those who cares about me the most
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